Imagination is the preview to the future

Its been sometime.

2009-11-09T13:17:00.005+08:00

Its been a long time since I last posted in here. I'll be busy this month with preparation for the Music Video Recording for Promise Me, the performance at Zouk, Christmas Performance, and more studio recordings.

Here's some videos and photos.

Halloween Photoshoot

This is my Latest English Single, Promise me. We'll be filming the Music Video This month.

The smile on your Face
Can't be erased
No matter what we go against

memories will fade
Our Love remains
Steadfast through the rain

Only tears of Joy and Laughter
Only you and me believe
that this love will last forever
through the storms thats growing stronger

Can't be denied the chance
to fight for what feels right

Cause baby I promise you
that we'll make it through
I'll be there for you
build a world around all the things we said
we want our lives to be

And will you promise me
You'll stay strong with me
keep that smile for me
all I want to see
Yes I know that we can pass the test of time
till forever you will be mine

God I love You!

2009-05-07T02:36:00.003+08:00

I have not been in here for ages. Lots have been happening in my life. Mountains after mountains, problems after probelms.. but still we have to keep overcoming them.

Ever since I started this path, I should have known that it was never going to be easy. I made big mistakes, made enemies, hurt many people around me, lost many friends, grown up, made more mistakes and now I'm still learning.

Has it been worth it? Absolutely Yes. Because of all this, I know my God is always there for me. Because of my human nature and flaws, I know I need God ever so much more. Because of my sinful and willful nature, I know my God is a forgiving and ever so loving Father who loves and takes care of me.

The first half of my life has been messy, filled with Failures, but through it all God has never forsaken me. He still gives me dreams and visions. I am going to be His Great Under Dog Story. It is still in writing but everyday, I am sure the story will end by bringing Glory to His Name.

In His Time.. God only Gives Us The Best!

2009-03-24T14:46:00.001+08:00

For the singing course, we have 4 stages, beginners, intermediate, advance, performance. At each stage, there will be a test where every students have to take to move to the next level.

Stage 1) Beginners (2 months) - $150/mth
Students will be focusing on their basic techniques skills.
- Breathing
- Pitching
- Rythm
- Voice Projection

Students will have to also learn one Exam song of your choice within this 2 months.

Stage2) Intermediate (2 months) - $180/mth
Once basic techniques are in place, students will move on to understanding different genres of music and higher level of techniques.

- Understanding and Using Vibrato
- Understanding and using Falsetto
- Basic R&B techiniques
- Basic Jazz techniques
- Basic Harmony (2 part)

Guest Instructors for intermediate:

Babes Conde, Popular Singapore Idol Vocal Coach who has coach the biggest stars in the industry, will be the Guest Vocal Coach to teach the R&B and Jazz Techniques. Students get to benefit from her vast experience and fun teaching techniques.

Exam piece would be one Jazz or R&B Song and a Basic Harmony test.

Stage 3) Advance (3 months) -$200/mth
Advance Stage would be preparing students for basic performing skills.

- Understanding 4 part Harmony
- Basic Stage Grooving
- Improvisation of Song
- Basic Stage performance techniques

Guest Instructors for Advance Stage:

Hafis, from popular local acapella group Juz B, will be teaching students the Harmony techniques. Hafis is also currently with the SAF Band and is an accomplished Musician who has performed in many big events and has represented Singapore in competitions overseas.

Rahim, 2008 KO Night Champion and A Former President of popular Tp Dance Group, will be teaching the basic Groove techniques and Stage performance Techniques. He will help students understand how to project on stage and also to groove freely to the music.

Students will have to work on a solo (Fast number) and a group(acapella/Duet) song for the exams.

Stage 4) Performing (4 months) -$250/mth
Once students reach this stage, it means they are serious about being a performer. Music Garage has 2 electives for students at this level.

They can choose to master Dance and Sing, or Master Pop Keyboard and sing. In this 4 months, we will develop them to be a duo artiste, which is to be a master of more than just singing.

Exam at this level will be judge by Industry producers/Artistes. We will send Students for various Live Auditions to get a Paid Singing Gigs. Exam results will be based on ability to pass these Auditions.

Every Year, the Top 4 students will be given a one year sponsorship to our Garage Project, where we will groom the Artistes for 1 year. These artistes will be given opportunities for Events, Gigs and Recordings.

The next Basic Class will start on April, Every Fri 9pm. Class is limited to only 8 per class. Do sign up early to book your place.

Its over!!

2009-02-22T17:30:00.002+08:00

WHen I am tired, I sleep. When I am hungry, I eat. When I am sad, I cry. When I am bored, I do stupid things... er...

Thats so true. I always look for trouble. I should be more focus. Goals Goals Goals... Love should never be one of them. If it happens good. If it doesn't Good..

Now is the time to go out.. enjoy myself and work my silly ass off.. I can push harder I know.. I am already stretching myself to the limit... but everynight, I feel I still have that 20% left.. and that energyg should be spent wisely.

God should come first. Then Family and Friends. I have neglecting all of them.. Recently..

Friends... some are really precious.. others are just Disappointing... Really Disappointing..

No time for whining.. I got to concentrate on work work work... I want to make it a year I will never forget.. not like it is that hard already..

Breakthrough year ahead!!

2009-02-08T19:46:00.003+08:00

I have set my Goals straight for 2009.

I have peace withing myself for I know what I want to do and how I want to get it done. For the things that I can't control, I'll leave it for the time being. No use being angry.

Thanks for all those who have shown me concern. I appreciate it. I have already said my peace. You want your money, come call me.. simple.. you want to me to pay back but don't call me? thats such a joke.

Just went to support Charlie for his B-boying dance competition. So many breakers in Singapore. I was so inspired and motivated. I will devote alot of time and energy to practicing my dance.

Being busy keeps me on my toes this whole week and I look forward to being busier. I want to achieve more than I can this year. I want to start rebuilding the different teams.

The Calles are having major changes. They dropped out of the semi finals today, but I'm so proud of what they achieved as a group, ever since the first lesson. So many ups and downs. Although I said I don't care about those leaving, I do. My heart is really pain that the original group has to change. Pain and disappointment is something I am slowly getting used to handle as times pass by.

I'm really motivated to make a big change in my lifestyle. This year is about Teamwork and Team effort to make things happen. I've been hanging out with so many new and cool people recently. They give me renewed strength to carry on. My Old friends who have always supported me are always my dears and I really cherish everything. Thank You my Friends.

New video to share with everyone. Reason I'm Alive is one of my original songs athat I am working to record soon. This is one of our practice session with Zarinah, who has an incredible voice.

Reason I'm Alive

Monday, I called you on the phone but you weren't alone
you were on your way home
so I said to myself
this is the first day of the week
I should take it slow ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh.

Thursday, I thought of all the things I should say
Maybe I could find a way (woah woah oh)
That will lead me to your heart

chorus
Cause all I wanted all my life
When I look into your eyes
most beautiful thing
an angel in disguise

can't find the words to describe
how I feel for you inside
you're a miracle
you're the answer
you're the reason I'm alive

Verse 2
Can't wait to start my life with you
everyday I'll think of something new
to make you laugh
to make you smile
to hold you in my arms forever
say these words to you and never

make you cry
girl I promise that I,
will always stand by you
will always remind you
that I really love you
and I really need you
These words I say to you
ooh ooh ooh

(Back to Chorus)

Cyber bullying!

2009-02-03T05:12:00.002+08:00

You think hiding behind an unknown nick and writing stuff is goin to be unpunished. Do you think I will sit here and let you trash talk your way. Its obvious you don't even know what you're talking about.

The first Garage battle was a cash prize where every week, $50 is added to the jack pot. the winner of 3 battles in a row will win all the money. After weeks of battles and changing of weekly champion, Jayden eventually won 3 weeks in a row and got his cash reward. He was our first Garage Battle champion.

Why don't you use your real name. why always hide behind some random nick. So that you can make irresponsible remarks and get away with it. There are 2 types of people in this world. 1st group are those that dream and build, the other are those that destroy and destruct. you find joy in destroying what others build because you don't want to build your own dream.

Many people have signed up for Garage Battle. One winner, either dancer or singer will be flown to Korea. Photos will be up in Due time. You'll just be eating your words when you see the photos of the eventual winner. And thats definitely not you, cause you definitely won't have time to practice.

Garage Battle has a simple aim. To give a chance to one who has the dream of making it overseas, to provide a platform for aspiring singers and dancers to aim for. Hopefully, we can support local up coming Dancers and singers in a small way by providing them a chance to go for Auditions overseas.

Keep on moving..

2009-02-02T03:25:00.002+08:00

Life is like riding a bicycle.
To keep your balance
you must keep moving. -Albert Einstein

How true.. No matter what happens, we always have to keep on moving. Its those that stop that loses their balance.

Imagination is stronger than knowledge.
Knowledge is limited,
imagination encircles the world. - ALbert Einstein

I love to imagine.. Fear takes away the ability to imagine, to dream. Fear takes away the self worth to even dream. Faith brings us forward.

This year I have imagined it in my mind and what I see is just exciting! I believe in the realm of miracles and possibilities..

It’s not that I’m so smart,
it’s just that I stay with problems longer. - Albert Einstein

So thats all I need.. a little more time.. A little more effort.. I'll be able to solve the problems..

This year is going to be a life changing year. Its a year of Harvest and building.

The world keeps on revolving..

2009-02-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

As much as I wish things would stay the same.. it doesn't..

Sadly relationships are paper thin.. and if we don't make a constant effort t protect it, it will break.. and soon, it'll be forgotten.

I try my best to always be there for everyone, but unfortunate events that has nothing to do with me changes things so drastically.

Disappointment once again fill me.. yet as I lay on my bed tonight, I will have to empty this feeling and wake up with a new hope.. a Hope that the future is in God's hands and that things happen for a reason.

Nothing I do is in my control, as much as I try hard to make things happen. Now I always just do my best. If it happens, its God's will be done. If it doesn't, God's making me wait for a reason.. Reasons unknown to me.

The Female acapella group will see new faces very soon. I have a vision that it'll be better, the bonds will be tighter, the new group will have a revived passion for excellence. Bye to the old.. Hello to the new.. The first batch takes a bow..

Wisdom tooth is killing me..

Hope is round the corner

2009-01-31T01:10:00.002+08:00

After the rain, comes the sunshine.. Survive the storms and you'll have harvest after.

The dark clouds have not subsided, as yet. but I can already see the silver lining. Maybe that's what Hope is.

I'm so tired today. Been gyming really hard and swimming too.. Jacuzzi's really great after the hard workout. I am beginning to love teaching again, esp at SMU.

Voice still not back yet. Guess I'll just have to make do and imprivise.

I'm really hooked on the new music arrangement of Reason I'm Alive. I can't wait to start recording it. Maybe even film an MV.

I really wanna write out how I feel about whats happening in my life now. Just don't have the energy.

In one of our talk, michelle, My dear sis says that I'm the sort who commits after I get into a relationship while most commit before they even get into a relationship. Thats why I get over girls quickly.

I couldn't agree more. I just want one person in my life, but if she's not going to commit, then whats the point of me sticking to her. I always feel that there are so many pretty ladies on earth. There'll be one who'll love me whole heartedly. Thats the one I'll die for.

There's lots worth chasing for in life. But we all only have 24 hours a day. I got to focus. I'm getting really affected by some nonsence minute affairs of the heart. Got to sart focusing. Its going to be a busy busy month..

More GYing, More Swimming.. I just love it when night falls. Where I can lie on my bed and knock out..

confusing..

2009-01-29T12:29:00.002+08:00

Confused.. thats my state of mind. I guess I just want to settle down but now there are more and more factors to consider. I guess its difficult now.

I'll focus on things that I can work on then. Gyming, working out, bringing Garage to the next level, events..

Everyone is confused in the game of love. I wanted to keep things simple but events have taken place and feelings have been exchanged.

Can I just walk away pretending nothing happened.. Maybe she can.. I can't understand why though.. but feelings need not be understood.. its too complicated. I would rather just let time decide.

I guess it'll only get more complicated as time goes by. But yet a simple decision will clear it all up.

If only...

Time to give up..

2009-01-29T00:28:00.002+08:00

All it takes is alittle effort.. but not only have you not put in that little effort. you have greatly disappointed me. You take me for granted and make me wait indefinitely.

You would rather spend time with friends then me. I am not asking for much. Everytime we meet, its only for a short 1 hour. but everytime you meet your friends, ther's no time limit.

Hope that you have made the right decision.

Maybe I am not suited to be in a relationship yet. I really want to though.. a seriou one.. where I can commit to. But looks like I have to keep my swinging bachelor lifestyle.

I will focus all my energy on work.. give myself a target.. a focus.. Feb is going to be a fab month.. lots of planning and events..

Chinese new year..

2009-01-27T20:47:00.003+08:00

A time of gathering.. A time to bond.. But sadly for me, every year Chinese new year gets smaller and smaller. The annual get together are sadly missing all the fun and laughter. Whats left are awkward silences after forced new year greetings..

I have become detached from this festive celebration. Maybe all seasons seem to pale. I have 2 whole days to rest my vocals though. I don't even know if I can ever sing again.

I want to commit my year to making the best year yet. I want to commit to God and His plans more. I want to Commit to making more songs and learning more about singing and music. I want to learn more about marketing and product development. I want to make MG's Music Courses the best and most exciting in Singapore. I want to develop our MG website.

I want to fully develop my potential this year. Its time to plan my schedule and time. No time to waste.

but first I have to get well. I pray that I will walk out of this gloomy time soon.

Will I be able to win your heart back? I pray..

a can of worms..

2009-01-23T01:22:00.003+08:00

I guess you're probably hit by the economic crisis too. Who isn't? Its times like this that we should work to helping each other and not killing each other.

I always work hard to give my students the best I can give. They are my priority and that is how it will always be.

Its simple. There are few ways to settle these issues.

One way, Call me you should have my number. Lets meet.

2nd way, Sue me. I'll see you in court.

Harass me and I'll sue you. Simple as that.

You should know my character. I do not hide. I'm always a call away.

Don't be childish and play defaming games. You probably owe others money as well. I should know who you are. After all, there's only so many people whom I owe favours too.

Don't forget to call me soon.

:)

Year of Dreeams!

2009-01-21T14:22:00.002+08:00

I am going into this year with big dreams. Though my voice is not back yet, I am going to start seriously writing and producing my songs this year. Target to write 30 new songs this year, produce and record 10 new songs by end of the year, Perform more this year, produce 3 more MTVs..

Besides this, going to seriously learn and concentrate on Dancing, beat boxing, keyboard, and building my body.

I'm also going to dive deep into music by spending more time listening to more bands and artistes this year.

I'll also commit to at least 3 student performances this year. And also be more involve with the singing and dancing competition scene.

We've worked hard before.. but tis year I'll challenge myself to wor even harder.. much harder.. I'm looking forward to this great year..

grey skies are clearing..

2009-01-16T00:59:00.002+08:00

I had a great talk to clear the air.. I'm glad that she has shown a positive attitude after the talk. I am looking forward to a new and improved _ _ _ _ _ _..

Gone once again.. without a word.. without a goodbye.. but now we all know why.. 10 years down.. I hope from the bottom of my heart you achieve something with your life.. hopefully you will be a new person, one that does not lie, one that takes responsibility, one that disciplines himself.

Wish him and maybe her too.. all the best...

now that thats done.. time to look forward..

Time to get up my schedule to discipline myself. I want to achieve more this year! There are no ordinary moments.. every moment can be life changing..

MG is not for slacking

2009-01-15T11:47:00.002+08:00

'After class no place to slack'.. 'no family feeling anymore'.. what do you come MG for.. to waste your life away.. what kind of mindset is that.. every moment you are here is to learn more about your passion.. To practice, to get into shape..

We invest so much so that MG students can get the best facilities to train and not slack. how stupid can one get..

Seriously.. I woke up today still feeling the shitty feeling. We still the same people.. only now, we're all going to work harder and closer together.. the bonds we build are to help each other achieve the impossible dream.. of performing on stage.

I'm glad most students if not all except for one.. sees it this way.. If there are more.. please start adjusting and changing your mindset..

We have the best instructors, the best facilities, the best courses, not for you to waste them away.. its for all of us to learn and grow from it.

Family is going to get closer..That has always been MG and my priority.. in fact, everyone has got to put in their 110% effort in making relationships work. not just 110% on that 1 person.. so start putting in to others here and you'll know that MG is still the same..if not closer.. Not just because one person seldom comes down anymore..

I've not been so angry for a long long time!!

Emo shit!

2009-01-15T02:20:00.002+08:00

I am infuriated by this SOMEONE who keeps emo-ing and living in the past.. Please wake your fucking idea. You bother everyone around you with your small problems.. Keeps staying in the past.. thinking thats all good..

Everyone who moved to the new place loves it so much but here you are, complaining about how you missed that place.. If you want to go back there and emo go ahead.. cause there's nothiing left there... the future is what we all live for.. you want to stay and sob in your fucking past.. thats you alone.. don't say others as well.. noone feels like you!

We worked so hard to get the new place up so if you don't appreciate it, you don't deserve it..

From one world to another..

2009-01-14T19:20:00.005+08:00

Passing through to another world.. thats what I witness today. It was a heart wrenching moment. When they closed the coffin for the very last time. The reality of it all. The final moment. The very last look. The very last moment where the physical body will be seen ever again. Never again will that body be walking this planet.

Thats cruel.. Thats also Life.. Today has had a big impact on me. What will my funeral be? What will I be remembered as? What is my final sentence? Have I lived my life to the fullest.. What have I left behind?

I have a short 30-40 years left.. I have to work harder. I have to grow more.

My heart now goes to L. She must be feeling really sad and lost. Losing your dad is really devastating. Life Changing definitely. Memories of your dad holding you when you're young. scolding you when we did wrong. Suddenly memories of my own dad came flashing through my head. I tried to hold back my tears a couple of times.

When she broke down, my heart broke too. She has always been the kind to hold back her emotions. Always showing us the happy side, even when things are down. Seeing her cry like this and yet not being able to do anything hurts so much.

Music Garage is transiting really well to our new home. Everyone loves the new place. Our efforts have paid off. Tomorrow, our reception table is arriving. Thats really very exciting.

Took some photos at the balcony area..

I hate the dentist!!

2009-01-05T20:20:00.002+08:00

I've been a good patient for the past 3 days.. I stayed at home the whole of yesterday. Today I got a little of my falsetto back, which is a relief. But its still not completely back so I went to see the doc again. I also went to check out my tooth problem, which has been giving me problems for 2 weeks. And as I guessed, I need a root canal op again and more.

I have wisdom teeth problem which means wisdom tooth op. I hate that.. I also filled up the big hole at the back of my upper tooth. I am now officially in pain!!

Yesterday, I Played basketball near the new court around my house. I am pleasantly surprised that I can still shoot some hoops and create some trouble on court. I managed quite a few cool moves too.. and all that with cough mixture which makes me feel sleepy.

But this morning, I woke up feeling aches all over my body. It wasn't pretty. I felt so terrible with my whole body screaming for a massage.

Things are going very slowly and time is very tight. To orchestrate the move has been a real challenge. The wait has been unbearable too. But we've covered much ground. Now's the time to tighten up everything.

I really hope I get well soon. Real soon..

Patience is a virtue

2009-01-03T09:35:00.002+08:00

The Past year has been ups, downs, downs, downs, downs, ups, downs downs.. and it goes on..

but for every down, I see God working His miracles and it just amazes me at how he brings us through the worst of situations. He works in wondrous ways. Though the Valleys are tough to navigate and they hurt alot, it is also through the valleys that I learn important life lessons.

This year has been a great year of learning. Learning to work with my Bro and sisters, who has been really great. Learning Dance from all these fantastic instructors. Learning how to cope better with breakups. Learning how to cope with things that don't go my way. Learning to forgive others. Learning to forgive myself.

I make lots of mistakes.. Terrible ones. I think I've been carrying these mistakes with me and I refused to admit them. I finally learn to forgive myself, slowly, and try to look forward. Not that I deny making those mistakes and hurting certain people. If I can, in the future, I will definitely make it up to them.

Looking back, I also see lots of friendships that I have formed that are very dear to me.I hope to keep all of them as my closest friends for life. I hope I don't make the same mistakes or new mistakes to lose their trust and friendships. Lots of memories in 2008. Its been a great year. A long tough year that was full of fights and battles. I have scars from these battles but they will serve as a reminder to the wonderful times I had in 2008.

Looking forward is really exciting. The new place, The new plans we have, the new direction, all the new instructors.. New friends we will make, Old friends that we will reconnect with..

2009 is starting on a very positive note. I feel refreshed.. Its a new year of adventure..

Spend the entire day at home..

2009-01-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

Enjoyed performance with Juz B at Kpitiam City at Buang Kok yesterday. Its been a long time since I last performed acapella.. really long time.. I missed it actually.. though I need more practice.. And of course.. I hope my voice will return soon. I begin to actually doubt if it will ever return..

I stayed at home for the New Year, trying to catch some much needed rest, but I can't get to sleep.. thinking of solving all the problems are really stressing me out.

And I really want my health back.. Been coughing the whole day.. not like its new.. its been like this for weeks.. a month actually..

Waiting.. Waiting and more waiting.. Waiting for Love, Waiting to move into the new MG, Waiting for the current MG problems to be solved, Waiting for my Voice to come back..

So many things that need time.. I guess all I can do is do the best everyday and every min that I can. Settle things one at a time.

Lots of exciting things to look forward to this year.. I'm sure MG will hit new heights this year too. we're slowly building bonds and new friendships.

Congrats to The Calles for making it to the semi finals of Impresario 2008/2009. I hope they go all the way to the finals and win MG's first competition. It'll be a break through!!

Time changes everything..

2008-12-26T09:47:00.002+08:00

Spend my Christmas Sleeping at home and with my Family during the day. It was good to slack at home the whole day. I kindda miss those days when I was a professional slacker. Doing nothing, caring about nothing, and wasting life away with lots of fun..

After dinner together, I headed down to Garage for Practice with Juz B for 31st countdown show.. we were to meet at 8pm but I guess they were busy with Christmas celebrations so I went early to practice some breaking and popping. It was good to sweat it out.

Rehearsal is always fun, although I still have lots to practice and remember. The problem is that my voice is still not back yet. I have to keep on resting. I'm left with 5 days. Still have to memorize 7 songs. I'm really having lots of fun rehearsing again. I miss MDC Days. Days where we would perform every day, or practice everyday.

Thinking back, The bond with most of them were not real, as all of us, after ORD, never keep in contact. Only a couple of us still chat. Its the same with my poly mates.

After rehearsals, I had already missed the last bus, so I went for a walk around the area. Walking with a cool breeze blowing is quite refreshing.

These has been a crazy few days. I sometimes wish life was much simpler, like what it used to be. Now, there are so many things to think about, so many uncontrollable situations, so many twist, so many sudden changes. Sometimes I feel all heavy headed with all these.

Well I only have half my life left. My good years are only at most 20 more years. So not much time left for me to do things. Hopefully I won't waste my life away!

one day of happiness..

2008-12-23T19:50:00.002+08:00

Hmmm..its been so long since I last blogged.. lots of ups and downs.. Lots of rehearsals.. It was a really tiring and trying time.. but the best of it all is that its not ending anytime soon..

This is still just the beginning .. it always has been.. we're not even close to half of half of half yet.. we're just a little in front of the start line..

Lots to work.. lots to achieve.. lots to look forward too..

I had a weird week last week.. Its weird in a cool way..

Christmas is in 2 days.. but I totally don't feel Christmas this year at all.. When I was little, I would love Christmas.. now its just like any other day.. There's no special meaning or feeling to it at all.. Why? Why have I lost that special feel.. Why have I grown up. I want to find that tingling feeling on Christmas morning where we would run to open our presents, even when we know what we were getting.

Have been having diarrhea for the past 3 days, my voice is only 55% back.. I still can't sing above an E.. Thats really very demoralizing for me. I've been a good patient by not using my voice too much.. but still my voice is not back yet.. Doctors say it will only take 2-3 days but its been 3 weeks already.. Why? When? Will it ever come back?

The diarrhea is killing me too.. I have to run to the loo everytime I feel weird in my tummy.. sometimes its just air.. others its just too disgusting to be blogged.. the colour, the texture.. man.. its gross..

I hate to wait for things.. that something about me. I want things now.. thats so shallow.. I feel. There has to be sowing and reaping.. there's a time to wait.. Impatience will be my greatest undoing..

Patience is something I have to learn.. or rather cultivate.. soon!!

2008-12-14T03:48:00.002+08:00

Man United Drew with Tottenham.. Though a great match to watch.. I now feel totally down.. I don't know why I feel this way everytime united draw or loses a match.. its like I lost a match..

Sunday, our first Full dress Rehearsal.. For our student performance.. Its going to be exciting.. Lots of dancing and singing to look forward to tomorrow.. but my voice is still.. erm... missing.. darn..

I guess rehearsals have been pretty last min but things are starting to look in order.. I look forward to rehearsals tomorrow..

Garage has another makeover.. and this time it has never looked better.. I really love the feel of Garage now.. Spacious, clean and welcoming.. We've also thrown away lots of baggages.. attached with past emotions.. I feel so much lighter and relieved.. Gone are the useless clutter that chokes us.. Its a new beginning.

With new instructors like Rashid (Hip Hop dance), William (Keyboard), Connie (Keyboard) and Fariq(Beat Box) joining Garage, I'm sure there's lots to llok forward to..

Check out my sis on Ice.. She's really good..

When will I get my voice...

2008-12-07T20:16:00.002+08:00

Its already been a long 2 weeks and more since I lost my voice and the ability to sing. now at least I can talk.. which is a relief. The doc says I should be on the way to recover soon..

SOon is a very vague term.. hmmmm... I guess everything takes time.. Projects takes time.. Growth takes time.. finding the right one to love takes time. I guess enjoying the wait is something I should learn.

The journey is the interesting point of everything. Losing my voice and waiting for it to come back has made me appreciate my voice so much more. Where once I could freely sing and shout, now I can hardly whisper without breaking my voice.

The medicine has been making me really easily upset and down too.. trying to cheer myself up has been a chore. Working out has been twice as difficult.

My thoughts are scattered.. really difficult to focus on what I need to do. Too many questions in m mind, all about work.. hopefully I can find the answers soon.

2008-12-05T03:29:00.002+08:00

Knowing what I really want is most difficult question to answer most of the times. Why can't I be honest with myself? Do I not know what I want? what is my vision of my life?

Do I not know because I dare not dream? or becase I dare not work hard enough to chase it?

What is my Dream? What am I striving for? Will recognition from others change how I view myself?

how do I view myself? Am I optimistic about life? or am I a born pessimist? Why do I feel down easily? How can I motivate others if I don't motivate myself?

I've got to get over my own fears. I've got to rise to the challenge. I've got to set my goals right. Starting tomorrow. I need to know were I am going and how I'm getting there.

I need to help others achieve their dreams too. But is that what they want too? or do they come to Garage just for the company? am I being selfish if I put pressure and stres on them. I don't know?

Its the start of many things for me. Learning breaking, popping and locking, beat boxing.. going through the period of being a noob in all these. It really brings me back to pre MDC days when I just learned singing.. It was so difficult to get it right. I thought it was impossible but slowly I managed to learn..

Minwoo Dance routine is givng me lots of stress. But I'm going to learn to enjoy it and practice really hard. I really hope I can do a good performance.

Roy Keane just quit being Sunderland's manager today. He lead them to the premier league, but now that he's lot a couple of games, he begins t doubt his own ability. And he decided t quit as manager of Sunderland. Just a few monts ago, he was the manager on the rise, but things are really fickle.

After losing my voice for 2 weeks, I am begining t doubt myself too. I don't know why. Maybe its the energy I get from class. I know I want to show them whats wrong but I can't and so it gets really difficult for them to understand me.

With student erformance coming up in a fortnight's time, I'm begining to doubt if I can piece it all together.

Belief and Faith are my closest companions. I'm sure we'll produce a great and memorable show for all to see.

All these random thoughts.. good to get it out of my head.. Reading back it really looks a little messy. but I guess we all have times of doubt and fear.. Its how we deal with it.

Heads up, Shoulders back.. Lets move on!!

new Dawn..

2008-12-04T14:59:00.003+08:00

We've hit another wall recently. After the initial bustling of activities at Garage, now its kind of simmered down a little.

The courses are still pretty strong and interesting. We've got a lot of preparation and practice for our student performance on the 19th.

I'm learning Minwoo's Don't trust men Choreo. Its been trying really. I've also sprained my neck a little yesterday while trying to do a chair freeze. Break dancing is slowly getting better for me. I'm now able to do baby freeze, shoulder freeze(can only hit it 50% of the time), head stands, and my recent shoulder freeze. To add to this, I'm also practicing my footwork and transitions to the freezes. Its so hard when you add music and beats to the whole mix.

My cough is getting better, my voice is slowly returning. Still have problems with the high notes. probably the infection is not totally cleared yet.

There's much to do and little time to execute. Projects have not been going as smoothly as would have expected but its all in the learning process. I've got to get my head down to think out of the box more.

Read the Newpaper like 10 mins ago. About the terrorist victim's husbands story. There was one part which really struck me deeply. It was that he managed to tell his wife how much he loved her and she told him how much she loved him before she died.

Its really tragic. I'm still feeling the negativity of the news report and to add to it, its pouring outside now.

There's been lots to think about recently, with so many things happening and with my mood very much affected by the lost of voice and taking all the drowsy medication. I'm comforted that I managed to discipline myself to gym, go for dance class, and also teach vocals, even though my voice is gone or was gone.

Been meeting lots of new friends recently. Feel so unconnected though. It takes time I guess. Plus I've got to get used to chilling with older people, which have different topics.

I guess I'm still getting used to all these and coping with the current health condition I'm in.

Funnily, I still really enjoy my time hanging out at Garage with everyone, be it practice, majong, or just chilling. Thats where I find I truly am myself.. or can be myself.

I'll start my recording and producing as soon as I get well. And I'll work hard on my Dance performance too. My very first Dance performance. I'm so excited... and honestly a little scared..

Losing my voice is a night mare!!

2008-12-02T10:29:00.002+08:00

I've just lost my voice for over a week now. its a night mare but I'm glad its slowly getting over..

Last week was just busy busy busy..

Went to Zirca opening preview.. met some new cool friends.. But I lost my favourite Hat.. Its so freaking sad.. A pretty lady borrowed it for an hour but after the night was done, we were so intoxicated she forgot to return it to me.. Its gone forever.. bye my favourite hat.. you were my best..

Garage has been brimming with energy and its been a great month. With Student performance night coming up, I'm sure it'll be a busier month.

I've not gotten down to do my recording yet.. Its been over a month now.. I got to get my head down to work! After I get my voice back that is.

Today's breaking class is going to be fun.. But I have not practiced last week.. Hopefully I still can do the freezes and foot work..

Zouk was a blast!

2008-11-18T15:03:00.019+08:00

After that terrible soccer match, I went shoppping with Alvin and Leslie to prepare for Zouk outing with Michelle and her Dancer friends from Korea!

It wasn't actually meant to be me shopping but when we guys go out on shopping trips, We end up buying stuff..

Anyways got this really cute hat from Top shop, which is now my new signature look, and also a long sleeve shirt, and a funky tie, which when combine really makes me look very Jap. I love it

Went to Zouk around 12am and met up with sis and Amanda outside Zouk. Then I saw Danny too. Went in together and met up with the rest.. Took lots of photos so here they are!

Danny and Michelle

Amanda, Meiyun aka Mao Mao cong, Michelle

Ali(Korean Popper) Christina (Ali's Girlfriend), and Amanda

Ali and Christina

Chris, Michelle and Amanda.

Ash and Amanda

Ra (Star Dance trainer who trains JYP stars including Rain) and Amanda

Danny my popping and locking Shifu, and ME with my Funky Hat!

Didn't know these 2 could reallly Drink!!

Elmo and Danny, one from bang bang tang the other from F4...

Me and Chris, the Dating Master..

My beautiful sis and Amanda!

Michelle and Xiao Zhang, Best Locker in Taiwan!

Oh no.. Mum are you watching!!! hahahaha

Danny and sis

Cheeky Amanda and Danny.. I hear Cat screetching... ahaha

Am I making things worse.. seriously.. I am right.. ha

I'm a popper too.. hahah..

Okie folks.. till next clubbing..

Keep to instructions!!

2008-11-15T12:11:00.002+08:00

Some assholes just can't keep to simple instructions... We lost our very first match.. Due to some Defenders who gave a f*cking lame excuse of why he kept running up..

When you're a defender, do your F*cking job and defend AssH*le!! I'm Damn Pissed.. He such a waste of time.. I didn't even want to stay on the pitch anymore.. I subbed myself out ..

Those watching were asking why we didn't stick to our formation and plans.. I just smiled and shrugged.. but deep down I was boiling MAD!!

Ok.. I hate to lose.. thats one.. but I hate to lose when we should have won had we stick to the plan...

one thing, we had no leader today.. Usually I would have been shouting at the defenders but as this is a Church event and this was the first time playing as a team with them, I shut my mouth!

This teaches me that every team has to have one leader who gives instructions and has absolute decision making... and also team members have to respect their respective roles..

I think Team is super important.. I've learnt that it is better to have a lesser talented player on the pitch that plays his role than to have someone of ability that doesn't stick to the plan.. He brings the whole team down..

Lessons learnt in a short 6 mins.. Heartache for the rest of the day! I'm going to go eat Fried Rice now!!

I love popping!!

2008-11-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

I love Danny's Locking Class.. Its really a good toning workout too.. After that we had a really good time with the performance class.. Danny is competing this sat at SMU, 3pm.

Gym has been really trying today.. Had to take one exercise at a time.. I couldn't even have the strength to think of the whole routine.. I'm so happy I managed to go through all of it..

My body's still far from the ideal shape.. but Muscle takes time to grow.. and fat takes time to burn.. I really regret not exercising for so many years and drinking so much too.. Now I've got to work extra hard to burn like 7-8 years of drinking and unhealthy eating..

Sat we're playing soccer for the CHC Soccer competition.. I'm like so psyched up for that.. At night we're all going to Zouk with the Chris, my sis and the Dancers from Korea. I'm sure it'll be a fun night..

We got married is making me sad.. Alex and Shinae is Leaving the show, so is Hwang Bo and Hyun Joong.. It feels like I'm the one breaking up.. It is really sad.. I love the show..

I'm kindda starting to get used to being single.. Not so afraid of loneliness anymore.. Lots of work too anyways..

THings have been stalling!!

2008-11-12T10:41:00.003+08:00

Its been a standstill literally for the recording.. And I can't push it forward yet.. I have to at least get 2 songs recorded by Dec before the student performance. I'll get Reason I'm alive and Since you went away completed this month. That'll be my immediate Goal.

Went for Breaking lesson yesterday.. Wow.. I can do Baby Freeze now and 6 steps.. I got to keep practicing though. I'm slowly seeing myself transform to what I always see myself as.. Skills like Beat boxing, Breaking and dancing are always what I hope to be able to learn and now I'm actually learning them and slowly getting it.. I'm Super Happy!!

Not to mention that Garage has been seeing an increase in new students.. That rocks my day too.. Lynn Shocked us all with her new Red Hairdo.. But I must say I think it suits her pretty much.. I love the new look..

The artiste still have not been practicing yet this week. I've not heard Amazing Grace nor Faith for the entire week yet.. nor have I seen them practicing Dance together.. Where's the commitment? How can they improve without putting in that extra effort..

I guess Motivation is really lacking.. I understand its hard to be motivated too.. Even going to gym now with a sore body is difficult. But I guess thats when discipline takes over.

I'm also happy that I've been able to discipline myself to sleep early these days.. EPL and Clubbing has taken a toll on my health.. This Sat We'll be going Zouk with the Korean Dancers and Chris though.. I guess it'll be a blast!!

Time to hit the gym.. There's 2 meeting later..

Oh This Sat Street Soccer Competition at 8am.. Yay!! Gosh I need Soccer Shoes..

Love Love Love...

2008-11-11T15:58:00.002+08:00

Went to Hospital to visit Nia this morning after she got hospitalised from the Subaru Challenge.. She was sleeping when I got there.. Her dad came shortly and after, Mr S.. Arrived on the scene too.. The place got awfully quiet and the atmosphere was somewhat tense..

Well later I found out that her Dad knows about Mr S thats why.. Her Sis came by later to join her for Lunch. She had a huge engagement ring on her finger and was proudly showing it to us. I feel really happy for her.. this is her 2nd shot at Marriage and I'm sure this time it'll be forever..

The topic was then shifted to why am I still single.. Hmmmmm.. and after a lengthy question and Answer, they concluded I need to get myself an older Woman to suit my current lifestyle and needs..

I've been with a couple of older women before but they were talking about really older ones.. Those with Career and stuff.. I haven't tried really much older women before.. but they got me interested in trying out though..

Got to get my music Done up Fast!! with budget constraints.. Its really a long waiting process.. you've got to keep waiting and stuff.. I got to kepp writing stuff.. but I have totally no inspiration..

I've been enjoying classes at Garage Lately.. Yesterday's Beat boxing class was really cool.. I could do the Bass sounds now. Now to practice to make it better. Going for Kpop Dance later.. I must get my Dance up too..

Time to level up..

another chance meeting..

2008-11-03T13:52:00.021+08:00

Just the other day was blogging about the chances of meeting my ex was very low.. and in a matter of days, I met 2 of them..

I could hardly recognize the other one.. maybe cause its been like 6 years since we broke up.. I wish though that we could catch up more..Lots to chat but the irony is that we don't chat much when we meet. hmmmm Images from the past seems to fade somehow.. Maybe its my short term memory or maybe I've just blocked out a serious chunk of memory from my brain.. I can't seem to remember the details as vividly as before..

Today's the start of the Unlimited Music Course and our courses are starting to go into full swing.. it'll take some time before word gets out.. I'll be attending danny's popping class tonight.. Next week Charles aka stitch will be starting his Beat Boxing course.. Michelle will be starting her K pop course too..

Looks like it'll never be boring for MG Students again.. there's always something new to learn..

My Body is aching from the workout and yesterday's Dance class with the MG Artiste.. I partnered Eileen and she was a good sport.. Everyone's putting in effort during classes

Lots of Love going around at MG recently.. Well.. its always great to have the love energy around Garage..

Here are some lovely photos of us(MG Artiste) having fun at the beach.. Got the Photos from Amanda..

thats life..

2008-11-01T20:26:00.002+08:00

I have so much to say but yet I can't say them publicly.. mostly about the past.. well.. in involves them..

What are the chances of bumping into your ex on the street.. well.. when you do.. sometimes its kind of awkward.

Whats worse is finding out that you don't know much about the other person anymore.. and even worse is finding out that your friend has so much info that you never had!

Not that is matters anymore..

Yesterday we stayed up all night playing majong.. Lost $3.. first time I'm actually gambling.. with money..

Went Gym today although we were super tired.. I am surprised we made it through in one piece.. I was so sleepy.. but we managed to complete a full set.. Thats discipline..

Things are moving at such a slow pace.. but at least they're moving..

hitting the brick wall

2008-10-28T14:20:00.002+08:00

When you're running a marathon.. you'll reach a time during your run where you hit your wall.. which means you feel like giving up, like you can't go on.. your body and mind don't listen to each other.. It seems impossible to continue..

I'm hitting my brick wall now.. it seems hard to carry on.. impossible at times..

Thats my test.. I have to go on.. once I pass this wall.. it'll be a break through and I know we will reap the rewards..

I have to focus every ounce of energy I have now..

I'm beginning to understand myself a little better now and know what I want..

Happy birthday leslie!!

2008-10-24T15:21:00.007+08:00

Its Leslie's Birthday yesterday and we threw him a surprise celebration.. not that he was surprised though.. ha.. but we had fun..

here are some celebration pics of us and the birthday boy! Have a great year ahead bro..

Tamia ALmost

2008-10-22T16:45:00.002+08:00

This song, introduced by Tamia biggest Fan Shi Fu, is now my favourite song.

[ Verse 1 ]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of
being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's too late
And how could I really mean the
words I'm bout to say

[ Chorus ]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to
miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[ Verse 2 ]
I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I shoulda grabbed
you up and never let you go
I shoulda went out with you
I should have made you my boo boy
Yeah that's one time I shoulda broke the rules
I shoulda went on a date
Shoulda found a way to escape
Shoulda turned a almost into
If it happend now its too late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

[ Chorus ]
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/Ey ]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to
miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[ Verse 3 ]
(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some
nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but
tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

[ Chorus ]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to
miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
(sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
(but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to
miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but
tonight I wanna love ya)

Build beautiful crystals..

2008-10-20T17:49:00.003+08:00

words are really important.. so are thoughts.. I've been hit by a series of really bad and disappointing news..

But instead of griping about things.. I'm going to put my faith in them.. Everyone of them.. we will go to the Asia Conference.. Together.. I have Faith..

Things will grow if we stick to our plan..

I have alot to get going..

1) Film the video..
2) Start on the vocal recording of Since you went away
3) Start on the acapella for bu guan yi hou
4) Update MG Web site with our brand new course and instructors
5) work on marketing and branding MG
6) Junior Artiste Program School Tour
7) MG Artiste Outing (Sentosa)

Focus on the right things and slowly but surely it'll come to pass..

Yes Getting the right people for the job is very important.. Can I get the reight person.. I really hope I can.. I need to..

No more Soccer for me.. at least not in the Harvest league.. They've not got enough people.. sigh.. was really looking forward to it..

I missed the new balance run yesterday.. for Church and It was a great choice.. Church message was really great.. It refocused me quite a bit.

I wonder if she went for the race.. how did she do? hmmmmm..

Started watching Heroes season 3 and I'm really a big Fan.. still catching We got married and having loads of fun.. can't wait for the next episode to be subbed..

Bought a new snow cap with Alvin after Sentosa on Sat.. And I'm in Love.. with the snowcap that is..

I've been getting frequent headaches recetly which scares me especially after reading the news of the sudden death of the heartland babe recently and my friend's mum who just passed away.. I've been taking panadol to control it.. hmmmmm.. whatever I guess..

Got to get back to work now... next few days will be non stop work!! Fighting !!

still the one!!

2008-10-19T01:11:00.002+08:00

The last song Don't love you no more really connects with how I feel.. not that I don't love her no more.. but how a person feels when the person you love says that to you.. Its a really great song..

I went to Sentosa with Alvin and yet again, it rained.. We managed to get some sun though and I swam quite a fair bit.. I've been struggling to keep my fingers from dialing her number.. Its getting a little harder as the days go by.. slowly..

Can I ever get use to this feeling.. Hopefully cause its really tiring and torturing.. I've just been thinking about this.. The Chance of me bumping to her on the street is close to zero.. I've almost never bumped into any of my ex..

So I guess in my lifetime, I shall never again get to see her unless there is some divine intervention or by a stroke of Great Fortune.. Either way.. Could I have any hope for anything between us?

Don't love you no more..

2008-10-17T17:34:00.000+08:00

"Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)"

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
OK I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Those simple words hit so hard
They turned my whole world upside down
Girl, you caught me completely off guard
On that night you said to me
I just don't love you no more

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Blacks aren't good at everything!!

2008-10-17T12:55:00.002+08:00

I'm at Garage early in the morning as my sis had dance class in the morning.. After dance we were doing work and chatting when we just discussed something interesting her friend had pointed out..

We were saying that God has blessed the dark skin brothers and sisters with immense talents.. from singing to rapping to sports to dancing and maybe now even politics(erm Mr Obama).. they are dominating the world..

But my sis friend pointed out there's one area which they have not.. I state have not cause you never know when they might conquer that..

None of them have become world champion in Swimming.. You have not seen or heard of a Black swimmer dominating world headlines.. And its probably due to their density of their body..

Hmmm.. Food for thought..Never occurred to me that way.. Well I still feel that they are really talented and blessed..

The promise land

2008-10-16T14:03:00.003+08:00

Life is sure getting harder these days.. hmmm.. Watching the pursuit of happiness while blogging this.. this movie is so inspiring.. The small kid is ever so cute..

Happiness.. Such a strange word sometimes.. I'm not exactly unhappy.. yet I'm not exactly happy..

One moment you are everything to some one.. the next you are hated to the core.. I'm not talking about relationships only.. but friendships too.. This past year I've learned more about living then the past 25 years of my life.. I've been through so much for the past year that I can't even think where to begin..

These are hard lessons that hit me straight through my heart.. I'm still fighting hard.. Nights when I stay wide awake.. disillusioned from where I'll be going yet I wake up everyday with so much to do.. I can't stop now.. i got to speed things up.. yet my mind is bogged down but things I can't control.. Especially my heart..

Watching Chris Gardner's life is very inspiring to me cause what he's been through and what he finally achieved and the journey is simply inspiring. Life can be hard.. but for some.. life seems impossible.. thats when true character is tested..

I have test everyday.. I fail some I pass some.. these test are shaping me up.. I have to endure and work harder.. Goals Goals goals.. I will reach the promise land.. I will..

Never Again..

2008-10-14T16:29:00.000+08:00

"Never Again"

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Girl, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again

No, no, no, no, no, no

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it

But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

I wish like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Again

Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me

true spirit

2008-10-13T13:36:00.002+08:00

Its always easy to give up.. Winning or losing.. it does matter to most.. To me.. Trying your best and fighting for what you want everyday is most important..

I've lost most of my life.. be it at running, soccer, basketball, singing, relationships, friendships, exams.. thats life.. we can't win all the time.. there's only one winner.. I've always loved to win.. but sometimes the true spirit is to keep on trying.. to never give up.. to keep trying.. to dare to fail..

We're taking part in Asia Conference in 10 days.. we're not ready yet.. but we've still got time to keep trying.. putting our best.. thats already winning..

Yes I'm finally understanding winning from a different perspective.. sometimes to lose is to win.. the real winners are those who show courage and determination.. Lets all strive hard to be winners.. the odds are stacked against us.. lets rise together for the challenge..

I've won!!

2008-10-13T01:05:00.002+08:00

Today's topic is I've won!! What have I won.. she says congrats I've won.. but I never thought about winning or losing that way.. Wait I'm not suppose to even blog about it.. that she called me yesterday.. but well she wouldn't be reading anymore so what does it matter right.. just like we would never be together.. so what does any thing matter anymore..

I thought I've finally put it down but yesterday's phone call.. well kind of resets the timer again.. Certain words still ring in my mind.. but I know nothing will come out of it.. so I should just forget it..

Played soccer today with Bro and church friends.. Darn man.. They hacked my leg so many times that both my legs are swollen now.. I tried to play nice but they were barbaric.. We won 8 out of 10 games played so I guess they were really unhappy.. we played in the dark no less.. and I scored quite a few goals.. but it was not a good night for soccer.. they didn't play fair.. and I hate it when you step over my head.. I almost lost it.. thank goodness nothing happened..

My eyes are now swollen.. after playing with munny, our lovely precious bitch (female dog), I rubbed my eye.. and I think her saliva got it swollen.. sigh.. but she was so cute tonight.. she was smiling..yes smiling and playing.. adorable.. She's just the cutest..

Asia Conference Audition.. 10 more days..

life moves on...

2008-10-11T23:33:00.002+08:00

another chapter has opened in my life.. nope not another girlfriend.. but rather.. a time where work is getting so exciting once again.. We've been working on a few projects and its never been as exciting as its been now.. there's also a few friends whom have contacted me to collaborate on some music ideas..

Not to mention I'm so blessed to be able to work with the one and only Babes Conde on my new single, Since you went away.. production is already on the way and the production process is really exciting as more and more people are putting their efforts for this song. Its really a blessing to work with them. I'll be putting extra effort and I'll work really hard.

Asia Conference preperation has been going on and everyone is working really hard on this too.. Hopefully we can perform to expectations.

Soccer tomorrow.. I can't wait.. first time we'll be playing as a team..

I thank God for all these blessings..

went to Sentosa with Alvin on Thurs to prepare for the Artiste Outing.. trust meit wastough work but we also had fun suntanning on the beach.. though memories did flood back.. I know its best to look forward.. Ever since I chose to pursue music.. I hve already chsen the tough road.. I should have expected this road to be one of loneliness and struggle.. not fame and fortune.. I am prepared or rather was prepared.. I asked myself today.. is it worth chasing for.. My answer.. YES.. Even if I have to live the rest of my life alone.. I have chosen this path.. and no matter what happened or what will happen.. I will not regret this decision..

Life though has not been ideal.. it'll can only get better.. well.. when you're down.. there's only one way.. that's up.. :p

I have opened my eyes

2008-10-09T09:52:00.002+08:00

You know its been a week.. wondeering how she's been doing so I sneaked into her profile.. Saw tha she's now back with the french guy.. to say I was happy was definitely a lie.. I guess it hurts.. I haven't totally let her go.. I will after today..

I'm kinnda used to my usual routine.. now have new activities to start training for.. I'm starting my soccer training today.. Starting with Ball control and some drills..

Went to gym last night and suddenly had a super bad headache.. My whole head started pounding and I started vomitting.. Felt really terrible.. so I cut short my workout.. anyways I went swimming and swam a little..

I've always loved to be deeply in love with someone.. someone I can spend the rest of my life with.. Someone I can Love God with.. Someone who will be my all weather wife.. Who'll build up our dreams together.. I'm sure there's one out there whom I will fall crazily in love with and she'll also do the same.. someone who loves watching soccer with me, who loves watching me play.. Who loves watching movies with me at home.. Who loves the simple tings.. who loves hanging out at Garage with all of us..

I'm very happy after recieving a message from new student Edwin..He's improving after learning and he's happy to what he achieved during the lesson.. it makes teaching so worth while..

Also I've been really hard on he girls lately.. I really hope they can get through.. I want them to experience success on the Asia Conference.. they're improving so much and I want to encourage them too.. but I need them to stay focus and keep improving.. but I am impressed by their spirit and their hard work.. Keep it up Babes..

Guys we have to work hard too.. Lets look forward to the Auditions.. :p

Aint no sunshine when she's gone

2008-10-05T21:30:00.002+08:00

Its a busy busy sunday.. and I guess it'll get busier as the weeks pass.. Had a great time at Church once again.. The sermon was really great..

After that, we spend half the day at Music Garage practicing for Asia Conference 2008..Everything sounds great.. Good Job guys and gals.. Hopefully we can all get to showcase what we've prepared at the finals at Singapore expo in front of everyone!!

here's a clip of our hard work!!

Bless your enemies..

2008-10-02T01:50:00.002+08:00

You know what.. I hope from the bottom of my heart you get what you want in life.. Thats my last act of love for you.. I'm moving on.. Yes guys.. after these rollercoaster ride.. one where I threw myself to some pretty disgusting lows.. And I've thrown most of my pride out the window.. Its come to a very abrupt ending..

Knowing me.. I forget sadness like water on duck's back.. I will love the next person in my life even more.. I can't wait to shower all my love on the next girl.. I'm a better person after this failed relationship.. I have little regrets though.. I did all I could.. life's like this.. This is when I thank God for my short memory..

Jae's back people.. sorry I let most of you get worried about me.. I know all of you care.. sorry if I have been a little edgy too.. from tomorrow onwards.. my love is all for you guys.. and music..

I love my Family.. Even though they can be quite irritating at times.. I love all of them.. My DAD too.. He's a great Dad.. My mum too... My 2 sisters and my strong bro.. I love you guys..

God I know you will are always by my side.. catching me when I fall.. It's just great knowing my God will always provide for me..

What doesn't break you makes you stronger.. I am so looking forward to my next LOVE.. Hopefully it'll be my last..

Can't wait to start training for Soccer and I'm going to join Asia conference.. It'll be fun.. I love to go back on stage soon.. :p

Confused...

2008-09-27T01:59:00.002+08:00

Too many things I've been keeping to my self lately.. its making me really sad and bogged down.. I'm kindda tired..

well had a great performance at Raffles Place today.. loved the venue and the people watching.. Charles and Benny were great as always.. I'm just glad I did not have much mistakes.. in fact I wish I could have another 100 more shows where we performed like today.. it was spontaneous, fun and the vocals were really strong..

Got to start planning daily how to execute my plans.. More Original music Coming up soon.. I'm happy with the way my vocals are lately.. still working on improving the scaling aspects of it.. Tone can be better too.. and also music interpretation..

Its always exciting to be in the studio recording, to be writing songs, to be meeting people and letting others hear my works.. but at the same time, its heart breaking when the closest one does not see what others see.. when the closest one does not share your belief..

I ask myself why do I keep holding on.. Why be with someone whom does not even belief in my talent and my dreams.. well Everyone must have thought Abraham was a crazy man if he shared with them that he was told by God that he would be the Father of many.. his descendants will be as many as the stars in the night sky.. but he was still childless when Sarah, his wife was 99 years old... impossible for natural child birth... but nothing is impossible for God..

Likewise.. up till now, I have not made any significant breakthrough.. maybe except for that small success on Zui Hou yi ci where currently on youtube we have over 33,000 hits.. a big thank you for everyone's support..

But I believe in God's promises.. bottom line, I would rather put my time and money on fighting for my dreams then on Clubbing and having a great time(temporary happiness) not that it is wrong.. but being happy for that few hours, running away from reality and later having nothing the next day, yet burning a hole in my pocket, I find that I would rather spend it on my dreams or fulfilling some one's dream.. Thats why I get excited and really happy when I hit the studio, gym, or help someone come closer to their dreams of making it.. Cause I know how difficult it is.. and to try take lots of courage..

If I leave this world, at least I left behind something I've created from nothing.. and not some puke from my over drinking and hang over..

this rant is not against clubbing so don't be surprised if you saw me clubbing and puking.. hahaha..

it hurts to lose..

2008-09-20T00:16:00.002+08:00

guess the things that matters most in life is that I've given my best in whatever I tried.. be it in friendship, Love, Career, Dreams, singing, basketball, etc..

My dream life..

Career
to be a successful singer, with my own cupboard of multi million selling albums that has songs that wins awards after awards, to own a successful music School, with a record label that markets successful artistes that has a great career in entertainment, to hold my own concert not only in Singapore but in Taiwan, Korea, Japan, Hong Kong, Malaysia, America, the whole world.. To be involved with Movies, TV serials, Gameshows, To own, build and manage a chain of Hotels..

Family
to have a beautiful, God fearing wife who loves and adores me, for me to pamper and love.. A wife who knows my needs and inner most desires.. one to go through thick and thin with me.. one who will never use my weakness against me but push me up a pedestal, to honor me always, to be a great mother to my kids.. to be my pillar of strength when I am weak, to hug me when I am down..

Worldly possessions
A huge house with swimming pool, an underground club with stage, a movie theater room that doubles up as a ktv room, Jaccuzzi, sauna and steam bath, basketball court, a huge recording room, a restaurant with invited chefs, A porsche, ferrari, a harley Davidson motorbike, an Aprilla, a Vespa, lots of antique cars, German shepherd, Huskies, Huge fish tank with sharks and exotic fishes, maybe even a mermaid.. Walk in closet with all the latest branded clothes, shoes and accessories, a White Grand Piano, A jamming studio, Pool table,

Friends
Friends who love me, loyal, down to earth, nice, supportive, always seeking to improve, successful in living a balanced life.. always there when I need help.. shares their problems with me, trusts and believe in my dreams..

Health
Great body,abs and all.. no sickness.. grow old gracefully..

Dreams are great.. I love to dream.. If there was a job that helps others dream, I would be love doing it.. I guess I'd do a great job!!

life is not a competition..

2008-09-17T17:00:00.003+08:00

Just read 2 very different blog posts.. one got me inspired the other got me pissed.. Though I'm happy to note that he is now happy and doing well.. I guess everyone will find their path.. and Music Garage will find ours.. I guess I have learnt things the hard way..

The other was from a random person's blog and this phrase really inspired me.. so lets just forget all negative stuff and focus on this.. Its part of a letter a father written to the son.. this part spoke most to me..

Life Isn’t a Competition
You will meet many people who will try to outdo you, in school, in college, at work. They’ll try to have nicer cars, bigger houses, nicer clothes, cooler gadgets. To them, life is a competition — they have to do better than their peers to be happy.

Here’s a secret: life isn’t a competition. It’s a journey. If you spend that journey always trying to impress others, to outdo others, you’re wasting your journey. Instead, learn to enjoy the journey. Make it a journey of happiness, of constant learning, of continual improvement, of love.

Don’t worry about having a nicer car or house or anything material, or even a better-paying job. None of that matters a whit, and none of it will make you happier. You’ll acquire these things and then only want more. Instead, learn to be satisfied with having enough — and then use the time you would have wasted trying to earn money to buy those things … use that time doing things you love.

Find your passion, and pursue it doggedly. Don’t settle for a job that pays the bills. Life is too short to waste on a job you hate.

Love Should Be Your Rule
If there’s a single word you should live your life by, it should be this: Love. It might sound corny, I know … but trust me, there’s no better rule in life.

Some would live by the rule of success. Their lives will be stressful, unhappy and shallow.

Others would live by the rule of selfishness — putting their needs above those of others. They will live lonely lives, and will also be unhappy.

Still others will live by the rule of righteousness — trying to show the right path, and admonishing anyone who doesn’t live by that path. They are concerned with others, but in a negative way, and in the end will only have their own righteousness to live with, and that’s a horrible companion.

Live your life by the rule of love. Love your spouse, your children, your parents, your friends, with all of your heart. Give to them what they need, and show them not cruelty nor disapproval nor coldness nor disappointment, but only love. Open your soul to them.

Love not only your loved ones, but your neighbors … your coworkers … strangers … your brothers and sisters in humanity. Offer anyone you meet a smile, a kind word, a kind gesture, a helping hand.

Love not only neighbors and strangers … but your enemy. The person who is cruelest to you, who has been unkind to you … love him. He is a tortured soul, and most in need of your love.

And most of all, love yourself. While others may criticize you, learn not to be so hard on yourself, to think that you’re ugly or dumb or unworthy of love … but to think instead that you are a wonderful human being, worthy of happiness and love … and learn to love yourself for who you are.

should I leave?

2008-09-15T02:44:00.002+08:00

Just finished a fantastic dinner with Dad and Mum and family today.. Event? My dad's birthday celebration.. also for mum actually since their birthday is just 2 days apart.. My Uncle, whom is only 2 years older than me joined us too.. he came from KL just in time to celebrate with us..

He's a DJ now.. And goes by the name DJ akira.. He seems more cheerful than before.. he's been through a lot in life.. losing his 1st and only child.. then his wife.. now he seems so much more relaxed.. He's been a great friend to me during my younger days.. whenever I got into fights, he'll always be there to bail me out.. we got into countless trouble together.. though I doubt he'll remember most of them now..

Baby came to celebrate too.. which really made my day.. after dinner, we had a drink at robertson Quay. It was nice just chilling out and having some beer with her.

My thoughts are now on how to get our Artiste to a whole new level of performing? I read this on soccernet and this is exactly what I feel they must have.. this quote if from Alex ferguson, manager of Man United, on Christiano Ronaldo..

He said: "Role models are always important but these days you can turn your television on and watch Italian and Spanish football and get your role models from there.

"You see photographs of Ronaldo here and that's not by accident. That is to inspire young kids here because he is the best player in the world.

"He is the best player in the world because he practises all the time, he wants to be a better player all the time and I think that's key to it.

"You don't become a footballer by just turning up on a Saturday and just playing. If you are prepared to work at your skills and practise then you can get to a level like that."

I guess our artiste and students have to start a culture of practicing all the time.. not just singing KTV everyday.. but practicing their song, their repertoire.. To always want to work hard to prepare way before the opportunity comes.. The question is.. how much do you want it.. I think if we want something badly enough in life, we would do many things to get it..

I believe they can get there.. all of them.. they have the talent.. they just need to start believing in themselves and start working.. start walking towards who they want to become.. and not settling for who they are now.. or what they can or cannot do now..

Garage Battle is making me really excited.. lots of work to be done.. and we still have to settle the part 2 of Zui hou yi ci.. Its going to be a busy month ahead..

It seems so different ..

2008-09-12T00:35:00.004+08:00

Went prawn fishing with Baby.. she was really good at it.. she caught 7 while I managed a miserable 3.. in 1 1/2 hour no less.. she was really catching it man.. I guess I really suck at it.. we bbq it and had it for our supper.. it tasted alright actually.. I'm not really a prawn person..

The poor prawns.. had to pierce a stick right through them and then bbq them alive.. I feel so sad for them.. the process of dying slowly.. gosh.. I am such a meanie..

today was a productive day.. we came up with part 2 for the sequel to the much anticipated love story of Velle and Jae.. Will she or will she not get to meet Jae once more.. stay tuned..

I guess the sketch ideas were pretty good.. I liked the whole story line and we sort of have the scenes confirmed.. now for recording of the new song and also putting the production team together..

We also have Garage Battle on the way and our Junior artiste program is starting soon.. then there is the make poverty history event on the 17th oct to 19th oct, where we will be organizing a series of performances at Music Garage.. Also might be performing with some cool bands from Singapore band scene.. so looking forward to rocking out with them..

Lots of workshops and events coming up!! And I can't wait to start recording again.. The whole process of making music.. and putting it out for everyone..

haven't been clearer!

2008-08-31T22:28:00.002+08:00

Its a great Sunday.. Its been a great month and now the next month will be even more exciting with all our plans going into action. I have a clearer vision of what I want and what I need to do to achieve my dreams..

Starting this week, all MG artistes and I will be at Orchard Scape performing! There's going to be a basketball competition and bazaar.. We'll be performing there.. I so need to start learning my songs!

I'll be performing with my good friends and our loved MG instructors as a band.. its going to kick off our activities for Sep and Oct.

be kind to me..

2008-08-28T05:11:00.004+08:00

its 5am.. its raining again.. waiting for the sun to rise.. waiting for the break of a new day.. but guess the sun will not be up so early today.. grey skies fill the entire sky..

5am.. my eyes seem numb from the fatigue.. my voice hoarse from one night of non stop singing and screaming..

5am.. its been a long time since I am up till 5am.. I feel hungry.. Mac breakfast.. Irony.. 5am.. ha..

5am.. seems like a long way before 6am.. but as sure as the sun will rise, 6am will very soon come to past..

I have nothing to say!!

2008-08-27T20:52:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH... let me laugh out loud here.. cause I have no mood to laugh whatsoever... in reality..

Fantasy life seems so much better.. there I'm always happy.. back to reality.. I'm not exactly unhappy.. just frustrated with how things turn out even though you put your whole heart and soul in to it..

Lady luck, blessings..whatever you call it.. when will you smile on me.. I need a break man.. sometimes I wonder if those who work would really get what they want?

I work my ass off.. for everything.. Work, love, friends, artistes, gyming, etc.. I give nothing but my best..

I always end up with nothing.. is my best not enough? but how come others who are slacking away in life get everything.. they don't care about values, about ethics.. they just do what they want and get away with anything.. including murder sometimes..

I am starting to get disillusion with my principles.. I have to really think of what I want.. I have certain things now.. but am I really happy with or without them?

Money, girls, fame, fortune, cars, diamonds, unlimited wealth..

Love.. pure love.. no doubts.. total trust.. total love.. total dedication.. in this era.. does such love exist.. sadly.. in this fast pace of life, in this era where choices are so readily available.. where internet brings everyone together faster and then separates everyone before they even know how to spell each other's surname.. With internet, more choices are available for everyone.. impressions are all that counts nowadays..

I guess its time for me to join the change.. I am an antique in a modern world.. no one values antiques.. they get kicked aside.. they get left behind.. they're only put in a museum.. collecting dust.. I want to renew myself.. HELP!!

Grey skies please pass over!!

2008-08-22T16:36:00.002+08:00

I'm falling sick.. or maybe its just the aches of a super tiring workout at gym yesterday. My mind's split in 2.. should I go for today's workout??

My protein powder's finished again.. it always seems to finish so fast.. well that show's that time is quickly slipping away and it waits for no one.. I've been reading alot more lately and it has helped me quite a bit.. but I have a huge problem.. how not to fall asleep while reading.. I'll start.. but everytime I get to chapter 3 and more.. my eyes start to get really heavy.. I need tooth picks or something.. Darn.. Maybe I need someone to read to me.. or with me..

Joined a club recently.. a charity club.. And I so love its goals and mottos.. to make Poverty History.. impossible I hear.. but still I really wish that this can come true.. Although I also believe that lazy people have to work for it..

I know what its like being poor in Singapore.. but being poor in another country is far worst then in Singapore. I can't even begin to understand or feel their pain. If I were in their shoes, will I have the courage to live, to Dream, to love?

Even in my own shoes I'm constantly discontented with what I have, I am constantly comparing myself and feeling lousy about what I don't have.. I really have to learn to give thanks to all the little that I have now.. I am indeed a fortunate person.

Being able to dream, being able to have the courage to pursue, being able to have a chance at life, at a better life, thats really important. I hope that by joining this organization and supporting their causes and events, I will help more of these people dream and live better lives..

Through this, I will encourage myself to dream and lead a better and more fulfilled life as well..

Make poverty history... Together!!

No more love!

2008-08-19T10:31:00.002+08:00

Its a rainy tuesday... the weather reflects the exact mood I'm in right now. Its kindda dark and gloomy.. You can turn from Hero to Zero in a matter of secs.. From Love to Hate.. From Friends to enemies.. From Lovers to strangers.. From Rich to poor.. From Failure to success..

Isn't this world full of surprises.. This week has been a roller-coaster ride for me. Lots of ups and downs.. Well enough emo-ing.. I guess whatever life brings me, I'll just keep working on improving myself bit by bit..

I'm so fed up with my HP.. The screen's gone blank and now its not even coming back on.. I guess its double frustrating cause I don't know who's smsing me.. It might be important messages..

I have no phone numbers now.. its all in the bloody phone..

I have to work harder now.. work longer.. work smarter.. work faster.. I want to make it in life.. I want my life to be successful..

Where is my turning point in life? When will I be given the chance? Am I ready to take it?

My Baby's Birthday today!!

2008-08-18T12:51:00.003+08:00

Its my Baby's Birthday today.. Had a nice dinner with her yesterday for some pre celebrations at ShoKuDo at Raffles City.. Nice place.. its the same concept as Marche.. except that its all Jap Food. After that we went for a walk.. Window Shopping... All those nice looking new clothes.. Ahh... Wish I could buy them all.. They look so nice.. All the sunglasses..

Wanted to catch a movie with her but it seems like we always have no luck at the movies.. Its either all sold out with only front seats left or its closed!! We ended up buying beer and drinking at the park near her place.. Simple but Sweet.. Chatted a lot, something which I love to do with her.. Clowned around with her half high from the beer.. I'm not really a good drinker.. a little alcohol and I'm in a crazy mood.. As Thopin and her flat mates were preparing to surprise her at home, I had the job of keeping her from home till 12am.. It was really nice to spend the time at the park with her.. The moon was a big help too.. So round and white last night.. It was romantic..

The surprise gave her a shock too.. They all hid in her room.. and I was trying my best to piss her off by saying I want to go home and not spend the night with her.. She really got a little pissed off by me.. but all was well when she opened her room door and everyone started singing happy birthday to her.. She thought everyone was asleep.. ha.. My cute baby couldn't stop smiling.. We took a couple of photos too.. Will upload it soon.

Haven't been taking lots of photos lately... been really busy juggling Gyming, Garage, church, friends and baby and new projects..

I have to manage my time wisely and be more discipline.. I need to start writing down my goals this month and next month... Things have been looking up but I need to wrk much harder.. Much Much Harder.. Its time for me to Rise..

My darling baby!!

2008-08-10T23:22:00.004+08:00

Today is the unveiling of my Baby to the world.. The girl who has brightened up my days and has been really sweet.. Spend endless hours talking to her. hours seem to pass by without me even noticing.. Also introducing the brand new Jae.. Spunkier, Funnier and crazier..

Here's me and dear baby sister.. Love her so much!

Invited to perform at Bukit Merah for this week's CLAP Event.. Should start practicing soon.. looking forward to another great show..

A new beginning

2008-08-08T09:20:00.002+08:00

I've been awol from blogging for quite a bit.. since Sing Fest... Sing Fest was really great.. Had loads of fun screaming my lungs out.. Also found a new love there.. not really there but it started from Sing Fest and ever since have been basking in love. I feel like the luckiest and happiest person in the world now.. She's just been a breathe of fresh air and its just fantastic to be around her.. so full of joy and energy..

Had one show last week at toa pa yo hub and it was by far one of the better performances I've done.. though I still forgot some of the lyrics.. Its getting better.. Next week I'll be performing at Redhill.. 16th Aug.. ad Zouk next month.. its going to be a wild night..

Still busy gyming.. still not there yet.. I need more time.. and need to step up my game.. Garage has been a little steadier with all that has been happening for the past year.. We're going to go for the final push for this year..

feeling tired!!

2008-08-01T22:58:00.002+08:00

Skipped gym yesterday cause I forgot to bring the membership card.. Went back to gym today but everything felt so much heavier with the one day break.. Well still managed to put in a decent work out..

I feel I have changed quite a bit.. From G-force days, to Early Garage Days.. The events I've been through has really helped me understand many things about life from many different perspective..

I've also learned to accept many different things faster.. learn to react slower.. learned to let things move at a natural pace.. learned that many things in life takes time..

I feel I'm getting old.. can't really relate to many young and new stuff.. But I try to keep up.. My time is ticking away slowly..

Tomorrow another performance at Toa Pa Yo hub.. have to skip tomorrow's sing fest.. but come Sun.. I'll not miss it for the world.. Can't wait to catch Jason Mraz, Alicia Keys, Pussy cat dolls..etc etc..

2008-07-30T13:01:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was one of my longest day ever. started my day bright and early and did some spring cleaning at Garage. After which headed down to teach at Bukit Merah Sec.. The kids were relatively well behaved except for the few.. I would say attention seekers.. I can't believe kids nowadays.. If i wasn't teaching in school and he used those language on me outside.. I swear I'll slap him silly.. but with great power comes great responsibility.. I'm sure spidey would approve.. so no use slapping him.. I'll have to ask God for Wisdom on how to deal with him.. Well if I am called to help him and impact his life, I'm sure God will help me with it.. if I'm not.. then good luck to him..

After a tiring 2 hour session, I headed to collect clothes from the laundry. The 'aunty' there, ever so friendly was chatting with her real aunty.. who both looks preety much the same age.. hmmmm..then she freely introduced me as her Gan er zi.. which I was like ... er... you get the point.. Awkward silence filled the small shop but it was over pretty quick. Her auntie started questioning me about my career etc etc.. I was really worried she might think it was true.. I exchanged niceties and made a quick exit.. phew.. hate those situations..

Headed to cali before 5pm.. Worked out was pretty heavy today.. My arms still felt sore from the previous day's workout.. I worked on shoulders and back.. Tiring.. but must endure.. still have a long way to go..

Went back to teach Singing at Garage.. I am super happy with the current standard of performance by most of the artists.. There's a vast improvement.. though we have to work harder on the repetitions of song rehearsals, I feel they are putting in theor best effort.. Hopefully this will spur them on to greatness and start bringing glory to Music Garage..

Went for Supper with the usual suspects.. didn't eat anything but had a relaxing cup of Ice Milo.. Headed back to Garage to join My sis in their 'Pussycat' video shoot. Alvin helped filmed the whole process.. I joined in the fun much later and it turned out GREAT!! To the girls.. YOU GIRLS WERE SMOKING SEXY!! The video is HOT HOT HOT!! spend the entire night supporting them.. this was entirely produced, edited and choreographed by them..

change your thinkking!!

2008-07-29T02:55:00.002+08:00

Sunday was great.. Went to church and the message was really good.. Saw Ben again at church.. after that rushed down to Garage for Dance.

I'm quite happy with my performance at Dance on Sunday.. Managed to keep up.. Still got to work on the stretching part though.. I am soooo inflexible.. I've always been since I was young.. way back when I joined TaeKwando when I was like Primary 1.. I remember I hated the stretching.. During BMT in Army, I wouldn't mind the Running, Standard Obstacle Course, The treacherous morning PT.. but I hated the stretching.. I would die from stretching!! Anyways.. I am committed to being a better dancer.. so stretch I must! Joyce kept laughing at me during stretching.. somehow girls always seem more flexible!

Headed to the gym with Xiong and Eileen to meet Alvin, Shi Fu and Leslie.. It was a great workout.. though I must say that the gym at Toa pa you really cannot make it.. and the people training there seemed rather unfriendly and self centered.. There was one guy, whom when I was doing my shoulder press just instructed me to shift some where else..

Firstly, I got there first.. if he wanted to work out.. he should wait.. If he can't wait.. Buy one gym set and stay home.. and he should ask politely... but given his looks.. it does match his character.. go imagine..

If I see him again next week.. I'll definitely take a photo and post it okie..

Anyways the gym was really small and squeezy.. the equipments were old and rusty.. the toilet was small and smelly.. the freaking water cooler was in the toilet.. I almost died from dehydration!! All in all.. I'm not going back to Toa pa you Gym ever..

After gym we headed to Novena Square for Dinner.. Went to Hans.. Everything was nice there.. I odered Sirloin Steak.. Alvin ordered Grilled Chicken.. Xiong had pasta.. Leslie had fish and chips and Shi Fu had Beef burger.. Except for the beef Burger.. I had a bite of everyone's food.. and everything tasted really good.. It was a really good dinner after a really hard workout..

Congratulations to all the artists who successfully completed the physical training.. Its a really good start!! Keep it up!!

this is something meaningful that Lijun send to me.. Interesting..

It will take just 37 seconds to read this and change your thinking.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.

His bed was next to the room's only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.

Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fineview of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man onthe other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.

Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.

She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.

It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'

Epilogue:

There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.

Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.

'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present.'

finally over!!

2008-07-27T01:47:00.002+08:00

Its a rather mixed Sat for me.. Had a really short but sweet dinner with 'Spidey'.. The food wasn't great but the conversation was.. got to know more about her too.. Which was great..

Then had to rush down to Bedok to Judge Bedok Superstar.. I must say this was the worst ever that I have been treated as a sponsor and judge of an event. Even though I am disappointed with the treatment, there were some pretty good performances tonight and it was enjoyable to watch some of the young kids perform.. Najib Ali was there too.. but didn't get a chance to chat with him..

Rather, an old friend by the name of Benjamin Eio was there too.. Also judging the event. had a great catch up session with him. He's change so much.. for the better.. He's stopped smoking, something which I use to bug him about, and he's been going to church! I'm so happy in the big change in him.

Hopefully we can get to work together again. But well let's leave it to God to decide if we should. I'm actually kind of scared of another collaboration, after previous failures. I'm probably better off on my own.. but It'll still be great to work with him again.. Also great to be able to see Galvin there, another MDC friend.. he looks a little worn out and tired tonight though..

Had a good walk and chat with our Xiong Xiong after the event.. Had to find someone to bitch about that... B*tch.. Pardon my French.. We had a good laugh about certain stuff.. ate dinner at KFC at Parkway, after which we went home.

tomorrow's going to be a busy busy day.. Church in the morning, Dance in the afternoon and gym at night.. I also have to start working on my repertoire for the 16th performance..

Lastly... I can't wait for We got married episode 20!!! I want to watch it NOW!!!

Its getting complicated!

2008-07-23T23:03:00.005+08:00

Had dinner with mum, Kai po(God Grandma) and Kai yi ma (God Auntie) who both just arrived from Hong Kong.. I've never seen them before.. but they are really very nice people. Then there's little Rozzanna, who in a few short years will grow up to be completely different and will not even remember me and our dinner at Muthu's Curry.

Talking about Muthu's Curry.. I was on the cab to Muthu's Curry where the uncle stopped me infront of The Banana and insist that it was Muthu's Curry.. He declared.. 'You don't know meh.. Muthu's Curry Change name already.. You don't know ah!!' to which I didn't even bother replying.. I called my mum who confirmed it was just down the Road and it was still called Muthu's Curry!

You know the cab uncle still swear that he really read that Muthu's Curry changed name.. I wasn't even pursuing anything.. well.. guess he wanted to be right..

Muthu's Curry... didn't really like the food there.. now I'm having a sore throat, can't sing and a blocked nose.. I hate it!! I can't sing and I'm aching all over with the 2 and half hours workout in the gym..

After 2 months of hard core gyming... I'm still no where near the body that I hope to achieve.. its still a long way more I believe.. but here's a photo to encourage all.. a photo of one person who was called 'FAT MAN'..

Still working hard to build on this.. but hopes this encourages others that if we work hard, we can achieve..

Sunday!!

2008-07-20T13:54:00.002+08:00

Sunday... I haven't really felt a real Sunday in years. I remember Sundays being all about lazing on the sofa and Cartoons. In a twinkle of an eye, I'm all halfway through life.. Still seeking and finding.. The answers to life's many paradox!

Another new comment left on Zui Hou Yi Ci's Youtube video..

'But i heard that this song is written by a 17-year-old girl for her boyfriend before she died'

Its the on going debate on who wrote the song.. Ha..

I'm just so happy and honored that this song has been so popular via the net. though there has been many confusing claims to this song, I hope one day, people will all know the truth.

Haven't had time nor energy to write new songs lately.. But I really want to finish recording my songs soon. Its been really hard to get everyone together on this.

Going for Dance Class later.. Artiste program starting from Tomorrow.. New Faces.. New Stories to be written into Music Garage.. New Adventures.. More Outings!!

$60 well spent..

2008-07-17T20:11:00.004+08:00

A message stopped me in my tracks as I was about to leave for GYM in the morning.. 'Hey free to meet for lunch today..' I couldn't believe my eyes.. Its really unusual to get this type of sms from her..

OF course I thought straight away! I proceed to reply her and yes we met up! But I was 15mins late.. Got held up at Gym.. Never the less, it was still wonderful to meet up with her after so long again.

Had a nice Chat and food.. Lots of Laugh.. but could see she was rather tired.. Still I'm glad that she made a special effort to meet me even for a short while rather than going home to take a rest or nap..

so this next song's performance will be dedicated to 'you!'!!

Disappointing!!

2008-07-16T10:52:00.003+08:00

Its been an exciting past last week.. went DragonFly to celebrate my poly friends birthday, met some new friends.. They all thought I was only 21! They called me Didi.. when I was older then them.. Gosh! Made me feel like a small boy..

Met Alvin at California Fitness on Sunday.. After that we went to eat dinner at Bugis Junction with Lynn, Lijun and Leslie.. Went to the new Jap Restaurant.. The food there is YUMMY!! Its really good.. the pasta.. ooh I love it!! We took lots of unglam photos.. will post it up as soon as I can..

Watched Red Cliff Last night with Xiong and Ah Mei.. I really love the Movie.. The plots and all.. Though its a bit longer, I somehow wished it would just keep playing.. I can't wait for part 2..

We're finally starting the New Artiste Training program this week.. That should be good to look forward to. Also have to start getting the guys together for the 'New Boyband' that we're planning to set up.. That should also be really interesting..

Time to hit the gym..

We got married!

2008-07-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

I am stuck on the Korean show we got married.. its super sweet.. the things they do.. I've watched the Andy from Shinhwa and Solbi... Seeing them sweetly in love, although its not Real.. they look so compatible together.. I too must work hard to find a love relationship as fantastic as that..

Today gym was just terrible.. I almost fell asleep while running the treadmill.. I was so so tired.. for the first time in 2 months.. I stopped at just 10 mins.. running only 2.5km.. Gosh.. although I did an hour of weights.. I feel so so lack of energy..

Burn out comes to mind.. Well.. thats an excuse.. I'll have to discipline my mind.. sleep early.. drink lots of water.. and I'm sure tomorrow I'll be back in no time..

2008-07-10T00:40:00.002+08:00

Another young and dedicated inspiration for us all to get inspired.. the kids only 11 years old and he does amazing things that most of us can't do.. and he trains every night..

My little sis has started skating not too long ago.. and she can already do this.. She's also my inspiration!!

MG Steam boat!

2008-07-07T15:17:00.010+08:00

Last Sat, We went across the street to eat steamboat.. waited for quite while to get our seats.. but it was worth the wait!! we took lots of random shots... and it was Reeaallyyy FUN!! Siying's new camera rawks!

Weekends ending!!

2008-07-06T17:29:00.002+08:00

Its another week.. full of adventures and heartaches.. sometimes I wonder what if my life is not so exciting with all the drama surrounding me.. Would it be better.

When you're in this never ending battle, you tend to ask silly questions like that.. People change way to easily and fast.. one moment they're your bro.. the next they're the one with the knife on your back.. well.. I have too many to count.. and sometimes the hurt just gets worse.. but I've learnt something through it all.. that everytime shit happens, it just gives me a great opportunity to sit back and revamp everything..

Music Garage has always gone through major Face lifts.. Through these 2 years.. and more.. in terms of Direction and personnel.. we've seen talents come and go.. and yet, Singapore has so much talents.. Its amazing..

I've been blessed to have met, worked and performed with these amazing musicians
during these 2 years.. I believe that is already a big bonus for me.. To be able to perform, at many places with these talents.. lots of memories..

But I've also learned that everyone has a time to move on.. as the chinese saying goes.. The Banquet will have to end one day..and we will have to live our life.. So moving on to work with bigger talents in this wonderful industry.

I hope to be able to work with so many artistes and producers.. so many established people who has ideas that are yet to see the light of day.. Hopefully I'll meet them one by one.. and that I maybe able to collaborate with them..

My wish is also for Music Garage Artistes to constantly win competitions. Its still early days.. but I believe nothing is impossible.. as long as we really want it.. I hope the current group of MG Artiste will grow hungry to be successful and will work really hard together for the next one year. I believe everyone will be stretched to their limits and see their Potential.

I'll have to stretch my limits too.. I need to work out much much more.. The first step was to lose weight.. now its to start building the body shape. one step at a time.. I am determined to change my life completely!!

and Dance class is really interesting.. just learned a new choreo from Dear Sis Michelle.. Still quite stiff.. but Dance is really very fun!!

Just finished uploading the other video.. Angels with Stitch and Audrey...

2008-07-05T19:49:00.001+08:00

Managed to upload one of my favourite songs of yesterday's performance at Far East.. Damien Rice's Cannon Ball!! I love the harmony towards the End!! Love this Song..

its my perception!

2008-07-05T00:22:00.002+08:00

I thought I did badly in tonight's show.. From the stage monitors.. I wish I could dig a big big hole and hide forever... but upon viewing the video, Its not half as bad as I thought it would have been.. Granted.. there are 2 songs that I wished I had practiced more.. Or I wished I had done better.. but overall I thought the whole performance was rather nice.. Thanks to Audrey and Charles aka Stitch who both put in a really wonderful performance..

I am starting to really like this team.. our synergy is really good.. the music is great.. they both are so talented in their own ways.. Hopefully we can work on more gigs together..

But I've learnt not to put too much hope in these kind of things.. you must take one step at a time.. one performance at a time.. too long term is scary after the Failure of the 2 MR S..

And I still wish to work with many other talented people around Singapore.. I'll be posting the videos up shortly..

For an hour or so after the performance, I felt really shitty!! I really hate to perform badly.. well I'm still working hard to constantly improve.. tonight, I rate my stage performance as really low.. I had little interaction with the audience and I practically had no charm on stage.. Lucky for me, my partners shone and thus in the process made me look good as well..

I could do so much better.. I will work hard on improving myself.. More Gigs to come!!

Nostalgic!

2008-07-04T02:15:00.003+08:00

While on the way to gym, I passed by this old mama shop at the void deck.. This was where I used to go to everyday when I was a young little boy with my Maid and sis to buy groceries and sweets!! I was so so young then... I haven't been there in almost 10 years now.. Maybe more.. But today, I walked in and I had this strange nostalgic feeling.. like I'm stuck in a time capsule and all the memories came flooding back.. Feelings of missing my Maid, Auntie Odette who I so willfully used to argue and fight with, The feeling of buying soft drinks when we were younger, where a soft drink was a luxury!

Then I saw Auntie and Uncle, the bosses of the mama shop and how have they aged.. they looked familiar and their tone ever so warm and friendly.. but time has not spared them from aging! They were so happy to see me.. they said I've grown up and look so different now! The smiles on their faces are still as genuine as ever!

Went Gyming and had a good workout.. as I was about to head to the pool for a swim, the skies opened and the rain came pouring down. I decided to take a peek into the stadium as there were lots of cheering and announcements. For the past 3 days, there had been an on going running competition! Probably nationals..

The timing was just right.. I caught the start of the 4X400m relay.. That brought many memories back too..I remember all too clearly my last 4X400m during the Sec Nationals at the National stadium. I was the last runner, our team was in 4th position. I took over the baton and started sprinting after the rest.. I caught the 3rd guy into the 1st hundred meters.. then caught up to 2nd place withing the next 50m.. Finally during the 200m mark, I overtook the first place and we won that race.. It was fantastic.. The feeling of winning that day, I could still feel it.. and today, it replayed in my mind..

What used to be my glory days, are now just dreams and fantasies.. I can never go back to those good old days.. like when I won my School 800m Race and the 2nd person was still at the 200m mark.. Some might think I am boasting.. but those present that year might remember.. I set a school record that year.. is it broken.. I guess so..

Tears flow down when I think of all these moments.. my heart starts to ache too.. faces of friends that I have lost contact with starts stirring all these emotions within me.. All the friends who cheered me on.. all the friends whom I shared my tears and joys with.. Now all seems so fictional..

Probably what makes all these memories so fond are because of all the unseen hard work that I put during my training everyday after school.. The sacrifices.. The pain..

I can't go back to my past.. but the future is what we can build! For me, the future is Music.. Tomorrow, Fri, I'll be performing at Far East Plaza.. 730pm.. I hope it'll be fun and that we'll have a great time performing..

Great Performance!!

2008-06-29T18:28:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's performance at Kreta Ayer was just Absolutely super!! We had to change the song selection at the last minute as the crowd was all super old people!! WE didn't even rehearse.. We did oldies like 月亮代表我的心，甜密密 andFly me to the moon, to which we won the crowd over. I really enjoyed myself perfoming with Audrey, Jenson( Audrey's Darling) and Fariq! I really enjoyed myself.. and the music was just WOW WOW!!

I feel so happy when I see others smiling and enjoying the performance.. Thats why I even began to love singing..

Today I went for Dance Lesson!! It was cool and I had lots of fun! I'll be going for more and committing myself to more lessons!! Can't really catch the steps though..

Germany VS Spain in a few hours time.. Who'll win.. I don't really care cause I don't support either.. Euro just does not really interest me.. not even a little.. I don't know why... I'm more interested to know if Christiano Ronaldo would be moving to Real!!

June's passing by.. July's awaiting.. Good times are waiting.. I'm sure the dark times will end soon.. Faith and Hope.. And lots of hard work!! Not forgetting God's Blessings..

I miss her!

2008-06-26T16:31:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling sore all over my body!! Its aching every where.. Everytime I sneeze.. OUCH!!

I'm going for a light run later.. just to run off some aches..

Watch Don't mess with the Zohan yesterday!! Its a funny movie.. Lots of laugh.. But I was really tired towards the end.. not to mention the body aches..

I'm watching the Building of the Ice Hotel now on Discovery Channel. I just wish I could for once in my life go there. It should be really fun and nice. To go with my whole family and love ones and spend some time in the ice hotel is really a dream! The way they build the hotel, the details.. and the ice hotel only last a few months.. After which, everything becomes a memory. All the carvings and art on ice will melt.

12,000 guests will get to stay for at least one night this year! Those lucky few people!!

Have to start working on practicing for this Sat performance at Kreta Ayer. Kindda last min.. but its always great to be performing.. This time I'll be performing with Audrey and Fariq. Its going to be great fun working and performing with both of them.

I've done it!

2008-06-24T13:56:00.002+08:00

about a month ago, I challenged myself to lose weight! Lots of it.. from a heavy 76kg to 72kg.. and the time frame was 2 months! This morning, I went to gym at Bishan. After a 20 min run, which I completed 4.4km, I headed to the weights section. After a short workout, I noticed someone weighing his weight.. I walked towards the machine...slowly.. stepped on it and weighed myself... The truth is about to hit me.. How much weight have I actually lost.. Gulp..

The numbers kept rising20... 30...40..45..49...55.. 60..65..69..69.5.. and its stopped jumping! Wow.. I weighed 69.5kg Now!! I lost 6.5 kg in 1 month.. I feel fitter too.. Still it a far way off my ideal body that I'm aiming for.. but its a good start to feel lean again.

Lijun, Michelle and I were going for dinner on Sunday when we walked past the movie poster of Don't mess with the Zohan! We all want to watch that movie so.. We're going on an MG Movie outing! This Wed, 9pm at Marina Square.. We'll be catching that movie and having a good laugh.. Everyone is invited.. or whoever is reading.. no need to book.. just give me or leslie a call for more info on where and what time to meet up!!

I've been singing alot of KTV at Garage lately...alone.. and thought to myself.. why don't I start a weekly KTV gathering with all who loves to sing.. Singing alone is fun but to sing with more people is always more exciting.. So its done.. Every Thurs, I'll open the hall for KTV singing from 930pm to 1130pm. All who love to sing KTV are welcome to join me in my KTV Night! FREE!! it On Da House Y'all!! Lets pack the hall!!

Its crunch time!

2008-06-22T17:47:00.002+08:00

Sunday Morning! Woke up to a rainy day! Grey skies.. but it wasn't enough to stop me from going to Church! Ha.. In the past I would have used it as an excuse to skip church! But I am committed to my walk with God.

I am also committed to being fit and healthy, being Rich, and making Music Garage a huge success. When I am committed, I will have to stick through it.. All of it!!Even though it kindda sucks when your whole body aches!

Church was great today, as it always is. Loved the message on servanthood! It really inspired me to start working on serving those around me. My Family, Friends, Students, even those who are not remotely related to me, like those victims in China and all those places with natural disasters.

Flash back to Fri and sat! Fun in the sun at Sentosa! Arrived there around 4plus. Checked in the hotel and headed straight down to the beach. We were so noob.. We tried beach volley ball but ended up using legs, which were far better than when we used our hands. I must say, loads of Good looking people around! It was a buffet for the eyes.. well I too was part of the feast cause I was on the beach! we played around a bit, then decided to play some beach basketball with 3 unknown China dudes.. one of which had such a strong American accent plus a hot bod! We lost the first match! And as usual, I seriously hate losing, even if it was for fun! We played another match and this time we won! Ha 7-3. Then they asked for another match, we won.. 7-5.. and then a last one, which we won 7-5 again! I was pleased.. ha.. Should have taken photos though...

In the late evening when Guoxiong and Ah mei and the rest of the gang arrived, we played dodge ball and frisbee, Music Garage style! We drew up a court on the sand and played teams. It was the highlight of the day. It was so fun that we woke up early the next morning and played it again on the beach! It was just loads of fun. We have a video clip of it.. will upload it soon!

Jacuzzi under the stars was really romantic if you were there with only you and your love one! Which made me a little sad cause I somehow feel that the aspect of love is really an important aspect in my life! Always has been!

This is the first time that I have committed to my life after a break up! Which is good in a way. Still I hope to meet the right one and fall madly in love once again! Why is falling in love so important to me? I don't know. I just feel so incomplete without another to share my day with... Share my problems with... share my triumphs with... To hold and pat to sleep, to hug when I'm cold, to be the strong one when she's weak.. To be weak when I'm feeling vulnerable..

Loving someone is such a wonderful thing. But the Love has to be mutual.. A one sided love just scars me!! and Scares me too!!

As for love.. I am committed to finding the Love of my life! To never settle for anyone but the one that makes my heart skip a beat.. The one that I would die for.. the one that I would wake up early in the morning to watch her sleep, the one that I would take long walks with and hope they would never end, the one that I would smile all day just thinking about meeting her at night..

oh where oh where can my baby be...

Faith brings us forward

2008-06-18T12:04:00.002+08:00

Have not finished learning and memorizing songs. I so need internet in Garage. After these 3 weeks of intensive exercise, I have never felt better. Lots of ideas to move Garage forward too. I feel so excited to start getting started on it.

Going to Sentosa to recce the place for Friday's Birthday celebration. It'll be a really fun time. All of us going to sentosa for some fun in the sun! Have not been to sentosa for a really long time.. probably 2-3 years already.. Thats how boring I've become these few years.. But its all going to change.

I'm changing my lifestyle and am committed to living my life to the fullest. I'll go all out for what I want and will be committed to making a success of whatever I do. I will wake up everyday determined to make a change in my life..

If I can do it, I'm sure all those around me will start doing things to make their life work too... :p

Its a new week!!

2008-06-16T09:17:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was Father's day and we went out for dinner with Dad! Last year's Dinner was a disaster but this year's was Fabulous... Daddy dearest was back to his charming self.. We had Sushi cause everywhere was full.. Although 7 of us had to squeeze onto that small table.. It was really worth it.. We had so much fun talking and discussing topics about God, Bible, Angels, and that was Daddy's Territory.. He quoted Bible versus and stories, and we were all very much enlightened as always. He's a Great Dad!

Played soccer with John and friends in the morning.. Woke up early to drag our tired bodies from Bishan all the way to Jurong east. Started the first game badly and lost but that was the only game we'd lost.. The sun was blazing hot though.. I almost evaporated into the atmosphere..

I'm so dark now, I'm almost on par with Aizat on skin colour. They say I look Malay now.. And thats only after one week of intensive training and exercise.. Speaking of which, I'll have to start my routine after 2 days break during the weekend. But my whole body is aching now after yesterday's soccer games. Its time like this where I draw strength from God.. 'Hear my Prayer oh Lord.. Give me Strength to become Skinny again! '

Had a chat with Siting on the phone last night.. Gosh I wonder what the phone bill will be at the end of the month cause she's in China now.. hmmmmm.. anyways it was always nice to chat with her. she'll be back in 2 months..

Its been a productive weekend for me.. Had a few breakthrough talks and ideas for the up coming month of July... The future looks promising.. once again..

Lastly, I can't get enough of David's cook version of Always be my baby.. Loving it! Looking forward to Siloso Resort this Fri!! Roof top Jaccuzzi!!

Live to the max!!

2008-06-15T01:29:00.003+08:00

I've just finished watching Hong Kong Drama serial, Seventh Day. Its a really nice Serial. I hate the feeling of ending a serial.. I always seem lost.. like after an event, or performance..

This show depicts many different angles on true love. Being Single now, I am so hoping that I too can one day be blessed with a relationship where both parties truly love and care for each other.

I have much to learn about love, commitment and trust. I'm still so far. I guess its a character flaw.. But like all things, I have to slowly work at it. I believe I will be the man I always envision myself to be.

But first, I have to concentrate on the business.. I have to strive continually to be the best, to work with the best, to learn from the best..

Life is really short. just lately I had a weird nightmare where I dreamt that a doctor informed me I had only one day to live as I had cancer! I was so lost.. I felt that I had so much to do but with so little time on my hands..

I was so happy to find it all a nightmare.. but time is really short.. I have to focus on living every moment of my life and not waste it thinking about what ifs..

Working out lately has helped me reignite a passion to excel in what I am doing. I will start resetting my daily goals and meet all of them. I know I can and I will. We can ride the storm.. we have overcome so many hurdles before.. I'm sure we will overcome this one too..

This phrase was in my mind when I was praying.. There are Dark times so that God's light might shine brightly. So through this Dark times I am going through.. I am sure God's glory and grace will bring me through it.

When I overcome all of the problems.. it will testify to His Glory and never failing Love.

I can do everything I set my mind to do!

2008-06-12T23:46:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 days.. :p and counting.. but not one day has been easy though.. well for swimming and running its been a struggle.. every day is my commitment.. I have to keep this work rate up!

I'll be increasing my time at Garage soon. I feel recharged and ready for the next push. I have been having ideas come and go in spurts when i exercise. So its just putting them down and planning them out.

Watching Old Chicago bulls games on ESPN.. I love Michael Air Jordan! He is simply the Best! He never backs down, never gives up.. He is a leader by example.. never refusing to throw in the towel!

Today in vocal class, they learned acapella of stand by me.. It sounded good.. I loved the harmonies. They have indeed come a long way since the start of the harmony lessons.. Good job guys..

I'm having great fun learning new set of songs too.. Starting with Chris Brown's With you.. Managed to memorize the guitar parts.. now for the vocals.. it should be done by end of this week.

I'm excited about next week Birthday bash for dear sis.. :p A day of fun in the sun... Roof top Jacuzzi.. BBQ... Beach, Sea, Sand, what more can I say.. I'm so looking forward to it..

The heart wants what it can't get!

2008-06-11T02:32:00.002+08:00

Its been another productive day.. Swam 20 laps today and went for a 3.5 km Run right after.. then went back for a short rest. After that went straight to Music Garage for lessons. Teaching today and I enjoyed it alot..

I can't wait.. We'll be celebrating Michelle, my beloved sisters birthday at the Sentosa Siloso resort... All with Roof top garden attached with Jacuzzi.. Seriously its really beautiful.. We're planning to see if its big enough for a small performance area.. it'll be so cool!! If its possible.. if not we''l just chill under the stars.. All are invited.. SO far the price is $25/person.. Food and one night stay!! Lots of people booking their places already so do don't be left out.. We've got to confirm the guest list soon aso that we can prepare the food and 'DRINKS'... To RSVP, Contact Leslie at 91995238! We'll be planning a whole day of fun in the sun.. at the beach no less.. I'm so excited... tomorrow got to run extra miles and swim more laps..

Hazel, Linn and friends just left.. they were super adorable.. they were supposed to sing KTV... but towards the end, they ended up Dancing the Shuffle and some other leg thing... then they got me into it too.. they taught me the basics.. Its really fun and easy to pick up.. but their movements were way to fast and advance for me to keep up.. After all, I'm an old man!! hahaha I'll be careful not to break a bone! Had loads of fun singing KTV with them... I'm just so in love with singing lately... I can't stop... Its just such a joy to be able to indulge in all the sadness in a song, or lovey dovey feelings in a song.. maybe its an escape for me.. I transport into a fantasy world when I sing.. My voice changes the surroundings and I don't feel lonely anymore.. I go into the character of the song.. Well I got to brush up on the duets though...

Getting really tan lately.. after all the swimming.. I kindda like the feeling of being so sporty again.. its like I'm back to who I really am... I really excel in sports.. I feel like I'm home.. then again.. I'm no longer who I used to be... its all just a memory for me to recollect when I'm old..

Now its just getting lean again.. Gosh its already 3am.. ZZZzzzzZZZzzzZZz

2008-06-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

Its 12:44 and I am tired.. really tired.. Just came back after a movie outing with my dearest sister Michelle.. We went to watch Sex in the city the movie.. It was great.. Loved all the costumes and the movie gave me much to think about love..

Hanging out with Michelle was fun.. I remember I used to hate to go out with her cause I find that when she's excited, she talks too loud.. and I hate it when people look at us then.. now.. I make as much noise as her!! though sometimes I still ask her to talk softer... hmmm...

Its time for bed now... going to keep up my routine and I'm teaching tomorrow... :p i wish I could get out of Singapore... even for a week... I need some alone time... to get my head and heart back... I hate it when my heart is full but my head says work work work!! I need a big break away from this place... I love this place but I just need sometime alone..

Time to WAKE UP!!!

2008-06-09T20:00:00.002+08:00

Ok lets see.. I've ran 3km this morning and swam 18 laps after.. so far my most ambitious work out.. I wanted to only go for a Tan but ended up swimming for fun..Muscles aching big time.. and Yes.. I'm getting a nice Tan... :p

I guess its reflection day again.. So many questions swimming around my head.. Why? What? etc.. Well I guess whatever makes you feel happy.. though I don't think I deserve any of this treatment.. Everyone makes choices though.. and if thats yours.. Good...

God has a plan for all of us and I put my Life in His Hands. My bro told me about Solomon today.. How he being the world's wisest man can also fall by being disobedient to God. So he was sharing with me the importance of being obedient to God..

I guess I'm learning as I grow.. I'm happy that these few weeks, I have been spending alot of time with my brother and sisters.. I'll have to refocus my time between God, Family, Friends, Music Garage and Music..

I have to start focusing my time on the right people.. I really can't understand how I can waste so much time and my limited resource on someone who does not appreciate it. This is my stupidity.. but its so hard when the heart is in control!

I am weak but God is strong..

Happy Birthday..

2008-06-08T00:06:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday... To Music Garage..Its been a great 2 years... Ups and downs... lots of people that used to be part of MG... I am using this one min to remember all of you.. I smile when I remember all the times we all had.. Lots of memories tonight...

Great Job Everyone.. I had a great time today at the party tonight.. I love you all.. Thanks for the wonderful performances.. THanks for all who turned up...

Photos will be up soon...

Everyone's so excited that we're already planning for the next performance.. I have to do more homework and come up with more concepts.. :p

Till next month.. Garage Rocks!

cam whoring good time!!

2008-06-01T22:52:00.006+08:00

ha.. haven't been cam whoring alot recently with all the gloom and emoing.. well.. today decided to cam whore a little.. ha..

Haha.. Its going to be a busy 2 months for me.. Going to start on all the recordings, rehearsals and practicing.. Add that to my running, which friends I have only missed 1 running session all week, which is on sat. Yes yes pat on my back..

Tomorrow I'll be going for a tan.. Cause I guess I am a little white chicken recently, which is not bad, just that its time to change to a healthier look..

I also went church today. Really love it. Will be focusing my life more on God and pray that he may use me for His Works soon. I can't wait to start on my Piano DVDs too.. I have to go down to Esplanade to borrow those DVDs of Luther Vandross and yes N Sync for Leslie and Aizat!! hahaha.. I'm hanging out with Himbos.. :p

Its been a weird month for me.. and time really flies. No matter if we're happy or angry or sad or emo.. time just flies past us. Might as well do something about my life instead of emoing everyday!! Sorry friends for all my nonsense.. but you've been great!

Music Garage Birthday this Sat.. Call all your friends... we're holding a garage Sale.. Lots of branded Goods, hoodies, and other stuff on Sale!! I'm talking dirt cheap sale!! Will put up photos soon!!

Also expect lots of performances from everyone at Garage.. Just come down and enjoy! This Sat 7pm!! No Slippers!! See you here!!

Meeting the needs and dreams of others..

2008-05-29T18:54:00.002+08:00

I've been feeling Directionless lately. What am I called to do.. Have I been doing the wrong things?

After Watching Ghandi, I realized the meaning of it all. The meaning of greatness as a Person. Its not only what you achieved that makes you truly great but by how you influenced the people closest to you to do the right things that truly sets you as a person of greatness.

I have yet to achieve anything, let alone influence others beside me. But I have a renewed conviction, which was the vision I started Garage in the first place. To help those around me attain their wants. To help them in my best possible way to achieve their dream by encouraging them to never give up. To always believe. To always help others achieve their dreams.

In retrospect, I have failed miserably on this aspect for the past year. I want all who come in here to truly shine in their own way. To leave Garage accepting themselves and having the courage to try and chase their dreams.

I want to meet more of their needs and hurts. And Really for try to help them again. in that way, they can help others too. If one man could make such a big difference, I belief we all should at least give it a shot too. Lets start small..

If noone loes me... I'll start loving myself!

2008-05-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

I guess I can't force others to love me.. So I'll start loving myself.. Its hard for others to love me I guess. Not that there's noone that cares.. There are many actually and I thank all of you for being here for me.. You've all been really important in my life. I have a great family and all.. but I guess I am born to be alone. Its better that way. I won't get to hurt anyone.. If I fail, I'll take it alone.. I don't have to live up to anyone's expectations.. I can be an idiot or an asshole.. I don't care anymore.. Who cares about being good... I just want to be real! A Real person. So whatever.. I can't be bothered anymore!

Still I need to Thank God for everyone in my life who loves and cares for me. I guess I never really thank each of you.. especially my family members. I can be so blind to kindness at times.. I love you all!

I have half a life more to live.. give and take a little more or less..I want to start working really really hard again.. no more distractions.. It'll just be work work and work.. I want to make the next one year just filled with work till I have no time for any other thing at all..

God Please give me strength and Wisdom..

Inspiring!

2008-05-26T18:22:00.003+08:00

I have complained for much of my life.. Everyday I complain. But this videos shows me that it is not how much you have been given but what you take with what you have.. I have so much given to me but I have not been half as productive.

I used to think I deserve better.. I deserve to get the best.. Now I understand that I take whatever is given to me. Little or much, it is what we do with it that matters the most. With Little, I do my best. (sorry people.. very Random of me to be so long winded)

God has given us a special gift in the form of this young girl who has been blessed with a unique talent that has touch millions of lives, mine just one of the millions!

No inspiration!!

2008-05-26T17:23:00.002+08:00

yes yes.. another great workout on the soccer field yesterday!! Justin had a few friends playing with us and they were good!! Feel much fitter now.. running lighter too.. getting back maybe..

Noone seems to believe I can run nowadays.. like I'm lying or something.. I always get the yah right look.. Hmmm.. Well.. Glory days are over.. though I wish I could still run..

Challenged Justin To a Race over 100m last night while we were about to sleep. For those who don't know... Justin is my younger bro.. in case you thought I was Gay or something.. more power to gays out there though.. anyways, We were just playing around the topic on who was faster until I threw him a challenge that I could beat him anyday.. So the date is set.. Tomorrow 9am in the morning.. We will both head to Bishan Running track and I will so kick his ass!! hahaha like I always did!!

Lots f Random thoughts lately.. lots of challenges.. lots to do.. I can't get lost now.. I seem to have lost my steam.. But talking to my Dad has helped me understand myself better.. I wonder what I am without my dad!! Probably nothing!

Anyways can't seem to write songs lately.. lots of tunes but no lyrics.. well.. got to let it flow I guess.. Shafiq will be going AWOL from Garage for 2 weeks cause he's going back to Army!! hahaha...

See that was another Random post.. anyways.. got to get back in focus.. GOALs GOALS GoALS!!

2008-05-21T17:36:00.003+08:00

you know I hate it when I watch a performance and go all soft and teary.. this young girl made my day, probably week..maybe month.. I just love her voice and star quality. Full of confidence.. the world is at her feet. For now, lets just enjoy this star performance..

I'm sick again!

2008-05-20T00:20:00.002+08:00

Falling sick is seriously not happening for me.. I am so stoned!! Looks like its lots of rest again..

I'm just falling in love with music again.. I've been watching videos of Jason Mraz, Robbie Williams, and Elton John on TV .. etc.. These artistes/singers/musicians are really great. They really enjoy music and are great entertainers.

Hopefully I'll be able to have as much fun with music as them.

I'm sinking deeper.. I need to pull myself up and away.. I need extra strength,.. These are really important months for me and Music Garage.. I'll start getting the momentum back.. FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!

Its time to get disciplined!!

2008-05-09T15:53:00.002+08:00

I should start disciplining my life! Get a routine going..Start my Guitar classes.. Start running again... okie how about a little wager.. I'm 76kg now.. I'll give myself 2 months to hit my ideal weight of 70kg.. Possible? anyone on for a little wager??

hmmm... besides that I need to start Keyboard and Zul's Breaking lessons as well.. how about my Sunday Soccer/Basketball routine.. hmmm..

I should put all these down into a schedule.. Hopefully I will go through with it!! Which I never have the determination to..

Is it age.. I'm getting older now.. Age is slowing me down quite a bit.. but I should be at my prime now.. I'll take one year to condition my body.. I should have a goal.. Ok the Next Standard Chart Marathon, I'll be there.. As a personal Goal..

Recording Reason I'm Alive this week.. Finally got down to doing some music Again.. Love this song.. I feel that Its a good wedding song..

Also just got my first facebook account too.. oh well.. kindda late but better late than never..

Been training my singing these few days.. Feeling vocally fit again.. Now to get my body into shape.. than my Musicality too..

Goals Goals Goals!!!

The meaning of life!

2008-05-08T15:06:00.002+08:00

A follow up from yesterday's video clipped I blogged bout..

Dick and Rick Hoyt are truly inspirational.. His message and his life has given me new fire and determination. His message to everyone.. 'You can do anything you want to do, as long as you make up your mind!'

Please take 6mins of your time to check out this video.

Self sacrifice..

2008-05-07T16:27:00.002+08:00

Michelle called me in the evening and asked me to watch this video.. I was like whatever.. I just finished back to back movies, crying bucket loads while watching P.S I love you and The perfect storm.. But she said I had to watch it, so I clicked on the email.. This is what was sent to me..

A son asked his father, 'Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?' The father who, despite having a heart condition, says 'Yes'. They went on to complete the marathon together.

Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying 'Yes' to his son's request of going through the race together.

One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let's join the Ironman together.' To which, his father said 'Yes' to.

For those who didn't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer) ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride, and ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island.

Father and son went on to complete the race together.

This is the video..

Tears just kept flowing and flowing.. I'm so touched by the determination and Love for his son. Everything I'm going through seems so small in their world.. They can live life to the max and enjoy every moment.. that is truly living life.. Not wasting life.. Cause The father lives not for himself only, but to give everything he can to his son..

You have not lived life, till you really love someone and give everything you have for the person.